Irritable mode. Do NOT provoke!

Goodness why am I here blogging away at this unearthly hour?! Guess I slept too much today. The fact that my stupid, irritating, retarded and not leaving out, noisy dial-up (the modem is kinda driving me bonkers already), hung up on me for like the umpteen times is nearly enough for me to smash it up. But lucky for the modem it's kept safely under the protection of my beloved laptop. I'll make sure I get rid of him soon. Somehow I'm gonna get "negotiations" through and get my broadband, then I'll be wireless here I come!

Don't blame me for being utterly irritable today. It's just sickening when things don't go your way. First I tried arranging for a day out with the girls this term break, just to get replies of uncertainties. Blame it on the stupid university education which taxes us like slaves even during breaks. Blame it on my foul luck and bad social skills that I can't get some proper company for a day of shopping. Sigh. Second I was trying to decide whether or not I should go for a retreat tomorrow (in fact it's later) in the night after my evening out with my darling, but up till now I haven't gotten my hands on the information I need to confirm that decision. Irritating to be unable to make plans, but that a small matter. The last straw was when I tried to kill some time before bedtime, the stupid connection lags like crazy and even caused my maple character to die. FYI, maple refers to Maple Story. It's an online game I've been sort of addicted to for a year plus already. As to why I started getting addicted, probably due to someone special. You know, it's like he plays so I play, then we'll have another common topic to chat about. I shan't elaborate, it's trailing too far off from today's irritable mood.

There's nothing wrong being a grumpy old lady sometimes. I'm just adjusting between adulthood and teenage life. I have a privilege of acting like a spoilt brat sometimes and be most authoritative like a full adult in the next. The joys of being 21. Hell to those that mock me for turning old. So what?!

Hmmm.. Talking about turning 21, I just had quite a few friends that did over the weekend. My dear councillors from AJSC, Stef, Kaiting and Shou Wen. And another new friend, Huiling, who's Leon's IA colleague. Felt rather terrible still that I missed Shou Wen's party. Agreed to go but the cake-cutting at Huiling's only happened at 9 plus. Wasn't very pleasant to leave before that, I didn't want Leon to look bad too. Well I tried apologising, he seemed like he enjoyed the rest of his friends' company and was fine with my absence. Made up for it with a prompt sms just now at 12am which I promised. Hope it removes a bit of that guilt off me. Anyway after I left the chalet at Pasir Ris, I bumped into the bunch or councillors who were earlier at Shou Wen's. They were on their way to give Stef a surprise. Couldn't join them, didn't really felt like it too 'cause I have not planned for it and I don't really fancy last minute changes. So here's a Happy Birthday wish to Stephanie, Kaiting and Shou Wen! All the best for your future undertakings and don't forget your old friends!

Time for bed. I've been doing myself much injustice from the lack of sleep during weekdays I should make sure I get ample rest this break. And sadly but it's a cold hard fact, to get my work and studying done before term break end.

Boredom

Decided I should add an entry before my "fans" start boycotting me. (As if there's any in the first place. BHB.) Anyway it's been a very uneventful week (and the week before) so there isn't much to talk about. Other than rushing assignments after assignments, quiz after quiz, the level of excitment in my life is equivalent to the lifeline of a ICU patient. (Beep. Beep. Beep. Beeeeee.)

Let me think, what can I talk about today? The only interesting thing (at least to me) is when I'm with my dEaR. Went Sentosa on saturday finally. This plan has been like put off for almost a month, not including the time before FOC which is another story meant not ever to be told. "P Saw the horrendous queue for the blue line to palawan beach, so we decided to give tanjong a try. Not bad, considering we are there for the tan and not the bikini babes and washboard hunks. Okay, I admit I do get tempted to ogle and "admire" the hunks when they do appear but that only shows I have a correct sexual orientation. Hell to those that deny this fact, even my dEaR confesses to it. Haha. The tan that day really shows how long I haven't been in the sun (or should I say EXERCISED) 'cause I was sweating like roasted beef (aptly put here as I'm born in the year of the ox). Never mind the disgraceful details of my laziness. Wore my new bikini. Brown with no fancy details. Mark of a mature lady. Haha. Cheap thrill. It does feel good to look that tad bit more mature, like a lady who's seen the world out there. Once again, cheap thrill. Never mind me and my endless fantasizing, it gets kinda draining if you constantly have to live so realistically.

Which brings me to another point. Why are people making a big fuss out of little things? Take things bit by bit and it'll all seem so much simpler. No doubt many issues are usually inter-linked, but as a chinese idiom goes 迎刃而解 which means, "the solution to one problem will solve another". Miss my old school days where all I had to worry about was where to go for lunch and what to do for the weekends. These days seem non-existence now. Sadden. Okay back to my day out.

After all that sweating, we decided to cut short our tanning session because of an approaching rain from offshore. We were so bored and out of ideas that we found ourselves in Chinatown. Very bored indeed. If anyone has got better suggestions for places to go and things to do please tag me, I'll really appreciate it. Soon got tired and plopped ourselves at a nearby Coffee Bean outlet. Started discussing on a matter I have not come to a conclusion. My 21st birthday. Should I celebrate it or not? Celebrate as in a real party with friends from secondary, JC and uni. On one hand I don't wish to trouble my close ones with the planning and the money, but on the other I really wish for it to be very memorable with people I've known these years and made me the person I am now, character and outlook. Dilemma. People reading this please do put your one cent's worth of suggestions. Should I celebrate my birthday? If yes, how?

Anyway need to restart my laptop 'cause I just updated my iTunes. Do tag me on your opinions.

Glitz and Glamour

Back in hall again after a tiring week running about. Before the weekend, been staying up late to prepare for the Alumni token of appreciation from JCRC and going down to Queensways after school to get the actual award. Had a big dispute with my deaR after that too over something I don't wish to bring up ever again. The only thing I'll say is that words hurt more than an open wound.
As the weekend came, the Hall 12 Dinner and Dance 2006 was the biggest highlight. Special thanks to my dear sister who so readily lent me her dress for the evening (after all my bad reputation with borrowed items "p). Went early with my darling and and to help around with the preparations. Felt out of place due to the fact I'm not part of the committee. I didn't feel like helping out too after all the trouble caused and disputes I have had with my deaR. But I guess what so difficult about swallowing my pride and help them out. They are a group of very competent people, but they just lack in experience, so why can't I just put everything aside? Whatever it is I just hope they stop thanking me for it. Anyway during the event, I must admit I did enjoy myself. Other than a very entertaining pageant, the programme was commendable. Took part in a couple game (sabotaged actually) where the ladies had for answer 5 questions, after which the guys would have to guess our answers. Here are the questions:

1. What's her favourite colour?
2. What's the first movie you 2 watch together?
3. How many ex-boyfriends did she have?
4. Where does she like to be touched most?
5. When was the last time you 2 had a noogie?

I bet you must be wondering what the hell is a noogie. Well that was what exactly my deaR said, but surprisingly he managed to get the same answer as me. His score: 4 out of 5. The question he got wrong? I said I like to be touched most on my back but according to him it was my face. Disagreement. He was sore about the matter throughout the whole night, asking me "why the back", of course it was good-natured bickering. But being together for the longest period of the 3 couples, we naturally breezed through the questions. Okay I admit we had some difficulties, but as least we know how each other would answer. Hehehe. Got the top prize of a table fan worth $50. Not bad, at least it sort of covers my DnD ticket and part of deaR's. Could have won more if not for my missing ticket. Damn. Whatever the case, we became the couple of the night for winning that game. To the rest of the girls eye-ing my man, eat my socks. Ha.
The night eventually went to Elyn and Darren for being crowned the Hall Queen and King of 2006. Seems they all enjoyed their night as the stars. Fits me fine 'cause I enjoyed mine as the star of my deaR. I LOVE YOU DARLING!