Gearing up, Moving on

Finally gotten down to sending out my resumes, the process has been slow but it's picking up. Hopefully I'll receive favourable news before I leave in May.

Anyway I'll be leaving for US in early May for Work & Travel. Will be at Grand Canyon for 2 months until mid July. Pretty excited but at the same time worried that if anything goes wrong with my FYP it'll affect all my plans. Reality's beginning to set in ever since this last semester started. Modules I'm taking are more practical and inclined to preparing us for working life. My mentality has finally caught up with my actual time in my life. Anyway it's probably because I see several peers already clinching ideal jobs even before graduation, while I sit here worrying if I'll even get an interview. Why does it have to be so pessimistic? I used to tell myself no rush, the right job will come in time, yet when I'm actually in the position of job search I feel extremely panicky.

Probably it's the expectations I set upon myself that I have to have a job after I graduate, or in the case now after I return from USA. Then there's the issue of a job and a career. Do I just want to get a salary or is job satisfaction more important? In the past, we easily answer those question with the normal TYS answers, but reality really creeps in so discreetly that those oh-so-easy questions don't seems so easy after all.

I'll be trying my luck on anything that remotely interest me (yes, my interest is still a factor, how matter small it might be). Give myself a reality check and for all I know I could land myself in a pretty desirable situation. Meanwhile I'll be enjoying my remaining days as a full-time student staying on campus.

Sleeping time. Night.

Fruitless.

It's a new year, but yet I feel totally lousy. Haven't done much this few days of the new year. Although I've been telling myself to take out the video I took on New Year Countdown at Esplanade, I haven't done it till now and I don't feel motivated to do so still. Things are beginning to clash again as my busy January begins. Miscomm is just one of the few problems I seem to be facing. Just a darn start to a supposed good year of 2008. Haven't been very good for me. Just hope it can't get any worse.

Happy New Year everyone.