An innocent kiss

innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it that way
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Hmm... Finally a day I can really relax. In fact tomorrow I'm gonna slack the day out and recharged my burnt out mind. Went jogging just now, realised my physique is getting from bad to worse. Need to do something about it. Felt fine during the jog, other than the fact that I can't seem to get my stupid muscles to start straining themselves. Finished the jog without aching muscles. Good but I felt less accomplished. Weird thinking right? Don't ask me why I think that way. 'Cause probably my only reasoning is that I believe in No Pain, No Gain. But the problem came after I finished the run. Stood up, blanked out for an exceptionally longer time than usual, and there was this tightness in my chest area. Sigh. Even felt nauseous. Lousy girl. But then again I didn't have to worry that much 'cause dear was with me then. He definitely would let anything bad happen to me even if I fainted right that moment. *giGgLeS*
One last paper to go. The Horrid THERMODYNAMICS. Okay, I shan't complain 'cause today is supposed to be a good day. After that gotta get down to packing my stuff and moving rooms. Lots of thing coming up after exams. Yup and I'm in high anticipation. Got this tuition job from the StarTutor agency I applied with. Sec 1 english and science. Shouldn't be a big problem, considering the crap I've been put through here in Uni. But let's not be complacent, gonna consult Yide about it, he seems quite pro when it comes to giving tuition. Haha.
Okay time to go get my laundry and do some mapling!!!

No longer the pessimistic

Okay back in hall to STUDY. Yes you heard it right. There's no lessons already and my first paper is on Friday, yet I'm in hall. Gonna spend my entire week studying and nothing else. Well... maybe a bit of games now and then to chill out and relax. Getting pretty skeptical about it. *RaisEs eyebrOw*
Anyway some updates. I PASSED MY DRIVING! Yeap, I'm now a QUALIFIED driver. ALMOST had the chance to drive back hall(under my parents' supervision still, of course), but couldn't get my P-plate so better not risk it. But I really think I did worse off then the last attempt, which I failed. In other words, although I failed the last time, I failed in a very steady manner. Whereas this time, although I passed, I passed in an absolutely un-glam way. Haha. Maybe mummy's right, I was god damn lucky and her prayers were answered for me to pass. *BlEahz* Whatever it is I've got my licence finally and that's all that matters. *GriNzZ*
So much to look forward to after exams. Going Genting with my hall friends almost immediately after exams end. Time to enjoy and finally settle matters between the two of us. Time to come to a decision where we are going to head towards. Shan't think about this now. It's far to distracting to do that now and I'll probably not come to any conclusion anyway. I'm also gonna get a taste of how single room-living is like. I've got to be ultimately lucky to get a single for the reallocation of residents for the Pre-U period, even Shu-Ying got a double room. Whatever the case I'm gonna be grateful and not cocky. Gotta find a way to kick that lousy cocky flaw. Can't wait to meet with all my friends! Jan, YY, Wen. 19th AJSC. The Motorola gang. Also start doing some handicraft. Found my carebear cross-stitch designs at home today, so inspired to do at least a couple of it! And ironically I'm looking forward to working! As in working with a salary. Also without, like for DnD and FOC. Can't wait to get back to all that planning and make a difference! Hmm... so many things! Better make sure I can fully enjoy it by doing well these 3 weeks! Wish me all the best! Thanks Jan!

Thanks for all the encouragement

Ok, it's time to explain my absence for the last 2 weeks. I admit I was basically too lazy to blog 2 weeks ago. Whereas for last week I was really bogged down with quizzes, all of which i probably all "buang-ed". Oh there was the intensive driving lessons too. Why? 'Cause I'm taking my retest TOMORROW! Wish me luck! Hmm... *pRaYinG vEry vEry haRd*
Been very distracted the past weeks. I don't know if it's a good thing though. Looking at the big picture it certainly isn't, 'cause I probably wouldn't be able to study very effectively for the exams which is like less than a week away. Sigh. Get some sense into yourself girl! You don't want things to go wrong because of lousy grades. You made a promise to yourself that if your grades are affected this is not going to carry on and I'm sure you don't want this to happen. Sigh again.
Never felt like this before. To miss someone so often so much. I think I can now understand the feeling of the chinese saying "to not meet for a day is like going through 3 autumns". It's a mixed feeling of happiness, worry, anxiety and anger. Happy that he ever came into my life and open my shut-out mind. Worried that I may not be good enough and that I may not be able to concentrate. Anxious in a good way about what is to come for myself in the coming days, months and even years. Angry that I'm not dealing with this with a rational mind, prioritising my responsibilities. I wish not to have external factors affecting what may could blossom into a very beautiful chapter or even chapters in my life journey.
Thanks to all my friends who have been encouraging me constantly. Specially to Wilfred. I owe you a BIG one for always keeping a watchout for me and constantly keeping my on track. Although we've only known each other for less than a year but you have definitely left a deep impact in me. I've really learnt a lot from you.
This is for Jan. Don't stress yourself out too much k? Sometimes I feel you such a kan-chiong spider I don't know what to do with you. Take things on a lighter note sometimes. Your mind can only take so much pushing. I know you can do it, you always have. Remember you always remain in top spot in my heart k? *sMiLeZ*
Time to hit Microsoft Word and write my essay on Sense of Meaning & Purpose and also my notes and practise my maths. Oh! And hit the bed early too! Driving test tomorrow!

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