Change is finally at my doorstep

That says it all, I'm finally gonna change the boring routine I've been dragging myself through for the past 2 years. While some think it's a long time, others think it's too hasty. Whatever the case, I'm glad it's happening, considering the unhappiness I've been feeling inside. As much as I try to hide it under the drama-mama act or reacting politically/socially correct, these past months have been pretty torturous to my self-esteem. Constantly having to distract myself with side events just proves how much I value the work I do. Zilch. Cero. Kosong.

So put all things behind, I'm gonna move on to be a happier person. :)

Sleepiness to the max

Fighting my extremely heavy eyelids... It's like they gained a kg each over the night, even though I tossed and turned to get myself to sleep last night. YaWnZ.

Jason Mraz's I'm Yours has been playing non-stop in my head for the entire weekend. So I decided to look for it online.


While I was looking for it online, found some comments about Jason Mraz copying another song for his other hit single Lucky. The song didn't really click with me, but it does sound really pleasant. Guess people are always quick to criticise and compare, rather than to look at the good pointers. Supposedly the rhythm was similar (this is according to what I read, 'cause I've not heard the other song before), but looking at the lyrics I think it's good enough to stand as a good piece of work.

Celebrating the Spirit of the SYOG

It probably isn't psychic to guess what's on the front page of the newspapers today.

YOG YOG YOG.

Not that I'll complain 'cause I simply love the snapshots of the Games. It's especially heartwarming to read the reports/commentaries thru'out the entire period, irregardless if it's truly the general public's sentiments or the writer's biased views, more so because they were largely positive. The only regret was that as the host nation to this inaugural event was slow to warm up and being Singaporeans full of criticism before the Games. But as the YOG progressed thru the 2 weeks, the spirits rose and some critics were made to swallow their earlier comments. Looking at how much the athletes enjoyed themselves and how much valuable experience (and friendships) the volunteers took home, I kinda wish I could have been more physically part of it. Nonetheless, mental support is better than nothing I guess.

Today while travelling to work, I saw someone in a polo tee with "USA" across his back. Assuming the guy was Singaporean, I thought "why not wear SINGAPORE on our backs instead?" 'cause I'm sure Singaporean who experienced the exuberance of the Games first-hand (like watching the Cubs play) would willingly do so. Just a random thought of how we can all be more proud of our nation. This SYOG has certainly evoked more patriotism than past NDPs had (not to criticise the organisers for it, since it's obviously different playing fields). And for that it deserves all the applause, for the single reason that it was SINGAPORE's YOG, our own to call. *sMiLEs*

Being Human

Today's paper seemed to have more human touch. Maybe it's the reader's interpretation too. Of the multitude of feelings thru the 13 days of YOG from athletes, delegates, volunteers, spectators and man-on-the-street which are mostly of joy. Of the hostage tragedy in Philippines and the admission of responsibilities. Of the Pakistan floods and calls to deliver more aid.

Gives the feeling we should all step back, look at the world, stop our rat race and help each other. Feel inspired to join a volunteer mission now, maybe I could look to doing that in near future... :)

Bouts of Sian-sation and Moodiness

Been totally unproductive today. A stack of files on the right of my table for archiving. A stack under my left arm to complete. And yet I find myself typing away on blogger.com. Last week I was just hoping September don't come so fast. Today I'm absolutely yearning for it. Why do I put myself through such emotional yo-yo? I think I'm masochistic. Indeed a happy lunch is needed. Then again it might not turn out as happy as it should. I should stop being so judgemental, maybe that'll help.

Differences

Why do we leave our lives to emotions and then regret when bad luck hits? Does logic equate to lack of emotions? Could we actually be logically emotional, i.e. putting your feelings where they should be? Frankly if people wish to squander their feelings around irrationally and when things go wrong, feel sorry for themselves and find it difficult to move on, those are the consequences.

我相信一切跟随着因果的道理。有因就有果，有时只是时辰未到，所以似乎我们有着不同的对待。可能我把事情看得太ideal, but 为什么又要看得如此悲观呢？This world is full of skepticism and being in it is way too tiring. 时时刻刻都要提防小人，提高自我的防卫， 真叫人喘不过气。

Enough is enough. 受够了。

Change is the only Constant

After months of negativity, I've finally set my mind to improve my situation. Change. Something which I have been so reluctant to do, yet yearn to have. Ironic right? But yes I've made the decision. Let's pray it's a good one.