Crap. I've been sick since god knows when. First it was the fever, not that serious but it sure drained me out that day. Then now it's the blocked nose. Been sneezing the entire day today and now I can just feel it coming. Yes, IT. The COLD. Crap. I feel really like Darth Vader now, breathing through my mouth and making funny sounds when trying ever so often to clear those blocked nostrils.
To add to the agony, my right knee is giving me problems again. Probably from tuesday's work, standing in heels for hours straight. Another of the many crap stuff I've been doing to torture myself while trying to kill time. I might as well kill myself, then I wouldn't have to kill time. How merciful of me. Duhz.
SUPPOSEDLY been working for the past 2 days, but I think I was slacking quite a bit while on the job. Haha. Courtesy of my slacker groupmates, particularly a guy(to protect his identity I shan't reveal the name) who is totally jnot working. Well, okay he did help out but half the time he's like chit-chatting away. In that case the guys that were chatting with him isn't much better. Hail the ladies! Why? 'Cause apparently we seem to be the more hardworking ones. Haha. Crap. Can't stand it already! My nose is now beginning to drip. It's killing my blogging mood. Oh, last thing before I go. Friends, please when you see me with a particular guy don't go "IS THAT HIM?!" so loudly. I don't need the wholeworld to know. Thanks and tissue to the rescue please!
Saturday, 28 May 2005
Friday, 27 May 2005
I'm Agent Smith!
Sheesh! Didn't know that The Matrix was a show made based on my character! Good, I'm Neo. Bad, I'm Agent Smith. Wonderful! In this case I cann act as both characters! Probably I can do a Matrix rip-off with me having a split personality and My split personalities are going to be Neo and Agent Smith, who will fight each other other. Cool!
I'm Darth Vader!
This contradicts with the last quiz I did based on my horoscope. Hmm... maybe I'm a mix? Hehe.
Friday, 20 May 2005
What My Birth Date Means
| Your Birthdate: December 3 |
Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. |
May the Force be with me
It's the star wars craze! Finally after more than 2 years of agonizing waiting! the final episode is out! Hmm... watching Revenge of the Sith on Monday, Vesak Day. Gonna fully enjoy myself these few days before starting work mext next week onwards. Hope everyone else enjoys it too, 'cause mine gonna be totally terrible considering the number of arrows I've just been shot and stabbed by others and my own self. Dumbo.
| Star Wars Horoscope for Sagittarius |
 You are superbly wise and have been known to spread your wisdom widely. Star wars character you are most like: Yoda |
Thursday, 19 May 2005
Taking for granted
Found this two quizzes particular interesting, don't ask me why 'cause it's those sixth sense feeling I get once in a while. Probably it's because it tells me something about myself I would never have realised unless someone told me about it. In this case the 'someone' is the online quizzes.
Went out for job interviews these couple of days, mostly promoter jobs. Well promoter jobs aren't that bad considering I'm unemployed. Something is ALWAYS better than nothing, in jobs aspects. Well hopefully I'll get selected for the Panasonic-Communic Asia job. Pay is freaking good(if there's no changes to what we were told earlier), it's a whooping $150/day for 4 days and just 10am-6pm only. The other promoter job at polyclinic pharmacy selling medicated plasters and herbal candy, probably just kill time, I guess.
Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself. Can't seem to brighten up my eyes, open up my ears and detect the reactions of people around me. It's not that I'm getting tired of all these, but the feeling of incompetency just gets to me too much. I know I can't handle people, my people skills is like near to zilch especially when it comes to people I'm familiar with, ironically. Probably because I take them for granted. It's like knowing that they understand my character, I boldly presume they can tolerate my wilfulness and insensitivity. It's high time I realised this flaw of mine and do something about it. In fact my problem is with rectifying the error rather than detecting and sourcing it out. I've long been telling myself about taking things for granted, more importantly take people I love and care for granted. Pardon me for my insensitive character. Reprimand me if you have to let me learn the hard way. If that is what I need to drill it in my head.
Went out for job interviews these couple of days, mostly promoter jobs. Well promoter jobs aren't that bad considering I'm unemployed. Something is ALWAYS better than nothing, in jobs aspects. Well hopefully I'll get selected for the Panasonic-Communic Asia job. Pay is freaking good(if there's no changes to what we were told earlier), it's a whooping $150/day for 4 days and just 10am-6pm only. The other promoter job at polyclinic pharmacy selling medicated plasters and herbal candy, probably just kill time, I guess.
Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself. Can't seem to brighten up my eyes, open up my ears and detect the reactions of people around me. It's not that I'm getting tired of all these, but the feeling of incompetency just gets to me too much. I know I can't handle people, my people skills is like near to zilch especially when it comes to people I'm familiar with, ironically. Probably because I take them for granted. It's like knowing that they understand my character, I boldly presume they can tolerate my wilfulness and insensitivity. It's high time I realised this flaw of mine and do something about it. In fact my problem is with rectifying the error rather than detecting and sourcing it out. I've long been telling myself about taking things for granted, more importantly take people I love and care for granted. Pardon me for my insensitive character. Reprimand me if you have to let me learn the hard way. If that is what I need to drill it in my head.
Wednesday, 18 May 2005
My Deadly Sins
Your Deadly Sins |
| Envy: 80% |
| Pride: 80% |
| Gluttony: 40% |
| Greed: 40% |
| Sloth: 40% |
| Wrath: 40% |
| Lust: 0% |
| Chance You'll Go to Hell: 46% |
| You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic. |
Keys to My Heart
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Saturday, 14 May 2005
Good things never come easy
Screwed up morning today. First woke up late and had to rush cab down to Harbourfront. Made dear wait for 45mins for me at the mrt station.(But I was ONLY 35mins late. Hehe.) Anyway ended up we didn't go Sentosa in the end. Had our GL meeting at Harbourfront Mac and left Harbourfront straight after that. It wasn't really a GL meeting I should say, considering only 4 GLs turned up and the CGL n ACGL. Crap. Got dua by Hengkia & Co. 'cause last minute all cannot make it and cancelled the outing. Goodness! The sun was so friendly today! Sucks.
But whatever the case, the whole day seemed to end in a pretty beautiful note. I didn't have to trouble myself with rushing down to Marina Bay to meet up with my Motorola gang. On top of that, I had some nice quiet couple time. It felt awkward telling him how happy or simply contented I felt being together when I did, but after that I'm just glad I did. Why? 'Cause it made both of us felt more assured of the relationship. Watched The Amityville Horror in replacement of the Sentosa outing. Quite a creepy show, had quite a few shrieks(as usual) throughout the show, but I thought it was quite good. Did a kinda funny thing. I sent him home! Haha! Sounds off? I dragged him up bus 70 that goes to his place and insisted I accomplanied him on his bus journey home. Don't know why I did that but just felt like being extra nice to him today.(Maybe 'cause I felt guilty about being late. Hehe.) Realised he lives two stops away from wen.
Read Jan's blog earlier about putting her best to achieve what she wants. Agreed. In fact earlier I was just expressing my thoughts about going for what you are interested in and what you feel will fulfil yourself much more. It may not be easy, but whoever said good things come easy? What's more important is that we give ourselves no regrets, leave no "ifs" for ourselves when we sit there in our rocking chairs at 70, as quoted from jan's blog. Studying is not everything but without it we'll be nothing. I believe in the saying that knowledge IS power, but what's more to it is the knowledge to apply. Applying it with the correct skills, techniques and of course the right attitudes. No point knowing every single skill in the book and applying it to prefection yet you do it with such cockiness, for example, which undermines all you could actually be worth.
Anyway should be getting to bed, 'cause I'm leaving home for Malaysia early morning at 5. Just a day trip though, but well getting away from the urban jungle for a while to visit some dragonfruit garden isn't that bad a thing. Maybe just the waking up part I guess.
Anyway dearies, I had a wonderful time on friday. It was great getting together chit-chatting like old times. But of course we all know it'll never be the same as before, sitting at KFC for hours bitching about the guys in class and stuff. Get together someday to do some groceries shopping and try to whip up maybe a 8-course meal? Anyway my boy-boy wouldn't mind joining for the food.(He's a big glutton.) Love you girls mils!!! Good luck to jan for her choir competition cum Europe trip and hope everything runs smoothly for yy during her bike lessons. For wen ah... erm... hope she'll be less clumsy? *giggLes*
But whatever the case, the whole day seemed to end in a pretty beautiful note. I didn't have to trouble myself with rushing down to Marina Bay to meet up with my Motorola gang. On top of that, I had some nice quiet couple time. It felt awkward telling him how happy or simply contented I felt being together when I did, but after that I'm just glad I did. Why? 'Cause it made both of us felt more assured of the relationship. Watched The Amityville Horror in replacement of the Sentosa outing. Quite a creepy show, had quite a few shrieks(as usual) throughout the show, but I thought it was quite good. Did a kinda funny thing. I sent him home! Haha! Sounds off? I dragged him up bus 70 that goes to his place and insisted I accomplanied him on his bus journey home. Don't know why I did that but just felt like being extra nice to him today.(Maybe 'cause I felt guilty about being late. Hehe.) Realised he lives two stops away from wen.
Read Jan's blog earlier about putting her best to achieve what she wants. Agreed. In fact earlier I was just expressing my thoughts about going for what you are interested in and what you feel will fulfil yourself much more. It may not be easy, but whoever said good things come easy? What's more important is that we give ourselves no regrets, leave no "ifs" for ourselves when we sit there in our rocking chairs at 70, as quoted from jan's blog. Studying is not everything but without it we'll be nothing. I believe in the saying that knowledge IS power, but what's more to it is the knowledge to apply. Applying it with the correct skills, techniques and of course the right attitudes. No point knowing every single skill in the book and applying it to prefection yet you do it with such cockiness, for example, which undermines all you could actually be worth.
Anyway should be getting to bed, 'cause I'm leaving home for Malaysia early morning at 5. Just a day trip though, but well getting away from the urban jungle for a while to visit some dragonfruit garden isn't that bad a thing. Maybe just the waking up part I guess.
Anyway dearies, I had a wonderful time on friday. It was great getting together chit-chatting like old times. But of course we all know it'll never be the same as before, sitting at KFC for hours bitching about the guys in class and stuff. Get together someday to do some groceries shopping and try to whip up maybe a 8-course meal? Anyway my boy-boy wouldn't mind joining for the food.(He's a big glutton.) Love you girls mils!!! Good luck to jan for her choir competition cum Europe trip and hope everything runs smoothly for yy during her bike lessons. For wen ah... erm... hope she'll be less clumsy? *giggLes*
Monday, 9 May 2005
Post-Exam Fun!
Feeling totally wonderful now. Well not from being bored and totally clueless on what to do at home, that is. But the fact that I'm actually slacking away with tonnes and tonnes of time to pile myself with that I can almost suffocate. Jobless still though, but who cares, I'm not gonna be stressing myself over that.
Had a great day on saturday. Dim sum lunch with my family in celebration of Mummy's day. (Oh yah, Happy Mummy's Day to MUAH dearest MI-MI! Well then again it's not as if she'll come online to see this message, but as they always say it's the thought that counts. Bleahz.) So fulfilling, stomach-wise from the good food and psychologically 'cause of the family time. Been a very long while since the last time the whole family sat down together for a proper meal together. Previously before I went Uni, Jie will always be out friends/boyfriend or work. Then when I started Uni last july, I'm the one who is often out-of-action. But then whatever the case I'll be back home much more frequently this 2 months. Cheerios to the holidays!
After lunch went over to Sentosa(Yeah again! Finally I get to go to the beach after months and months of yearning!) to meet my SC pals. Played so much beach volleyball that my shoulders and arms are kind of aching right now. But anything for the sun and the sand, topped off with wonderful company! For records purposes, shishi grace h.(who left before I came) cass huixia drey ck lenn shouwen jerhsuan yeehaun cla were there for the gathering. I totally suck at the game but whatever! I'm not there to impress anyone anyway. I know the SC guys too well to even bother about their reactions to my lousy play. Haha. Looking forward to another day like that.
Was supposed to join the gang for dinner after Sentosa, but i unintentionally got dear to wait for more than an hour for me in town. So had to be a good girl and go meet him before he got angree. Hehe. Really appreciate his waiting for me after my gathering. The night out was kinda boring('Cause we had no luck at the movies), but whatever the case time together is all that really matters, right? Made me realise I've really got to learn to be much more sensitive to him. Just feel that I'm thinking too much about myself most of the time and failing to take to heart his views and feelings. His sensitivity puts some kind pressure on me, but I'm not saying it's a bad thing though, just that I've got lots to learn about being together.
An activities-packed week ahead. Tomorrow likely to be going out for a movie. Wednesday meeting back in hall. Thursday Mummy's birthday(the 53rd!). Friday girl's day out to our old haunt the bubble tea hut at jubilee. Saturday motorola gang gathering. Hmm seems like I wouldn't be doing much of job-hunting this week. Can't be bothered though!
Had a great day on saturday. Dim sum lunch with my family in celebration of Mummy's day. (Oh yah, Happy Mummy's Day to MUAH dearest MI-MI! Well then again it's not as if she'll come online to see this message, but as they always say it's the thought that counts. Bleahz.) So fulfilling, stomach-wise from the good food and psychologically 'cause of the family time. Been a very long while since the last time the whole family sat down together for a proper meal together. Previously before I went Uni, Jie will always be out friends/boyfriend or work. Then when I started Uni last july, I'm the one who is often out-of-action. But then whatever the case I'll be back home much more frequently this 2 months. Cheerios to the holidays!
After lunch went over to Sentosa(Yeah again! Finally I get to go to the beach after months and months of yearning!) to meet my SC pals. Played so much beach volleyball that my shoulders and arms are kind of aching right now. But anything for the sun and the sand, topped off with wonderful company! For records purposes, shishi grace h.(who left before I came) cass huixia drey ck lenn shouwen jerhsuan yeehaun cla were there for the gathering. I totally suck at the game but whatever! I'm not there to impress anyone anyway. I know the SC guys too well to even bother about their reactions to my lousy play. Haha. Looking forward to another day like that.
Was supposed to join the gang for dinner after Sentosa, but i unintentionally got dear to wait for more than an hour for me in town. So had to be a good girl and go meet him before he got angree. Hehe. Really appreciate his waiting for me after my gathering. The night out was kinda boring('Cause we had no luck at the movies), but whatever the case time together is all that really matters, right? Made me realise I've really got to learn to be much more sensitive to him. Just feel that I'm thinking too much about myself most of the time and failing to take to heart his views and feelings. His sensitivity puts some kind pressure on me, but I'm not saying it's a bad thing though, just that I've got lots to learn about being together.
An activities-packed week ahead. Tomorrow likely to be going out for a movie. Wednesday meeting back in hall. Thursday Mummy's birthday(the 53rd!). Friday girl's day out to our old haunt the bubble tea hut at jubilee. Saturday motorola gang gathering. Hmm seems like I wouldn't be doing much of job-hunting this week. Can't be bothered though!
Sunday, 1 May 2005
I'll be there...
Happy May Day to everyone out there. Happy isn't exactly what I'm feeling now. Why? I'm not too sure. Probably a build-up of many things on my mind now. Let's start with the trivial stuff. For one, I've got a tuition lesson later and I've got no materials whatsoever for the poor girl to work with. Makes me feel so irresponsible going there with nothing to work with. Sigh. Then there's the stupid Thermo paper that's yet to be over. I'm already halfway out of the studying mood and I just can't seem to get my engine back on. Sigh. There isn't much of a choice starting tomorrow after the tuition lesson 'cause there wouldn't be much time left. Gotta start studying, by hook or by crook. Double sigh.
Anyway no more post-exam trip for me. 'Cause of some problem dear's facing at home, he feels he shouldn't be away. I guess even if he went he wouldn't really enjoy, 'cause his mind would probably be wondering how's things at home. Well, my decision was not to go as well since he didn't feel like it. Disappointed only because I thought the trip would be a good time for both of us to actually tie things up. All the loose ends hanging around, talk it out about what exactly is going on between the both of us. It seems things are pretty much stable already, but I can't help but feel the doubt, especially when I knew he was keeping his problems to himself. I understand that certain internal problems at home aren't that pleasant to say and I don't need the details, I just needed to know he's going through a tough time. I just wanted to let him know he doesn't have to pretend everything is alright. After he told me about it yesterday, when we were talking online about his deciding to pull out from the trip, I felt useless that I didn't detect his unease and I felt I didn't support him emotionally enough. I don't know maybe I'm just thinking too much. Maybe it's because of the show I watched in the afternoon about a husband keeping to himself about his job loss from his wife. His wife felt he didn't trust her enough to let her help in their problems. Maybe it's just the male's pride that they wouldn't let the females in on problems, thinking they can handle it, even though it may not be the best solution. Sigh. Well I guess right now these are the little situations we must face to test the both of us. Just hope dear will be feeling better soon and things at home will get better.
Anyway no more post-exam trip for me. 'Cause of some problem dear's facing at home, he feels he shouldn't be away. I guess even if he went he wouldn't really enjoy, 'cause his mind would probably be wondering how's things at home. Well, my decision was not to go as well since he didn't feel like it. Disappointed only because I thought the trip would be a good time for both of us to actually tie things up. All the loose ends hanging around, talk it out about what exactly is going on between the both of us. It seems things are pretty much stable already, but I can't help but feel the doubt, especially when I knew he was keeping his problems to himself. I understand that certain internal problems at home aren't that pleasant to say and I don't need the details, I just needed to know he's going through a tough time. I just wanted to let him know he doesn't have to pretend everything is alright. After he told me about it yesterday, when we were talking online about his deciding to pull out from the trip, I felt useless that I didn't detect his unease and I felt I didn't support him emotionally enough. I don't know maybe I'm just thinking too much. Maybe it's because of the show I watched in the afternoon about a husband keeping to himself about his job loss from his wife. His wife felt he didn't trust her enough to let her help in their problems. Maybe it's just the male's pride that they wouldn't let the females in on problems, thinking they can handle it, even though it may not be the best solution. Sigh. Well I guess right now these are the little situations we must face to test the both of us. Just hope dear will be feeling better soon and things at home will get better.
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