Council Chalet 2007

5th year running although dwindling but still existent. In fact it's still a pretty substantial group of people still in touch. It's a special year because some of us are actually part of the working society. Although new but the transition is inevitable. Lifestyles changed, but luckily personalities remained. I can still identify each person with particular trait(s).

Guilty as charged, of the 5 years, I've probably attended only twice or thrice, something I don't even remember. But this year somehow I felt if I hadn't gone for it, I'll probably never again. It's the transition I'm feeling where lifestyles change and people drift away. Something I've talked about ever so often, about people coming and leaving. I can't control the people coming (which I really don't mind), but I seem to be unable to stop the leaving (which really affects me socially). My network of friends continue to dwindle as I find more people leaving than coming. Yes, the bonds between the few may be strong but paths are going to diverge someday and whether we like it or not, the bonding is going to weaken from the sheer geological difference. Sounds real heavy eh?

But nonetheless I really felt happy I went for it despite the dilemma I felt before it. Maybe we've all grown, somehow the barrier I use to feel with some have just lifted. Talking with them no long feels as superficial as I used to feel. With age, I appreciate the presence of those that ever walked with me in life. Who cares if it has to make an impact or not, as long as it's good company.

Priorities.

I'm sitting back in hall, when I had earlier turned down Ruth to help with getting stuff for the chalet. Feeling pretty bad now as I've seemed to made quite a few empty promises this week.

For one I forgot about the chalet which was today, and was only reminded when Ruth had asked for my help. So in between that I had promised L I'll be around till Saturday with him. He had IH Snooker and I thought he could do with some support after Wednesday's matches. So now I'm missing his Saturday's matches for chalet, and I'll be prematurely ending my chalet appointment to make up for missing his games. Two parties all on the losing end, all because I couldn't make good of my promises. Goodness, I really suck as being a friend and girlfriend. Sorry.

Inspirations. The real world.

Stumbled across this song while I was studying for exams last week. Used to give me a lot of advice and inspirations. A self-composed song by the Aussie duo Savage Garden (Darren Hayes & Daniel Jones), it's one of the many chart-topping hits they've come up with in just 2 albums.

Lots of what is said in the song is just a true reflection of things and happenings. Many of which we choose not to admit ourselves. My personal favourite is the chorus where he mentions about karma. Probably 'cause I'm a believer of karma, "what you give is what you get returned".

On some website people are debating on the lyrics and some even mentioned wanting it played on their funernal! Here's one
: http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Affirmation-lyrics-Savage-Garden/E496B75585F5F928482569990018ACBB

And for those interested in learning the song as in playing it, hope this helps:
: http://www.guntheranderson.com/v/data/affirmat.htm

~"~
Affirmation

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
~"~

Other than this, there are many other great songs by them, but of the one that caught my attention were the ones that really spoke of the cold, hard truth of life. Like , a song to Dawson's Creek, telling us we've gotta move on.

Nothing big happened that inspired me to write this, but I just felt that such composers like them should not be forgotten. Songs like these should get a little more credit, other than just entertainment. Ponder upon it.

Relaxation

The week after exams, coincidentally also mine and Leon's birthday. Delayed celebration to today due to his FYP. It wasn't much of a celebration just a relaxing day out. Then we realised we were still pretty much suffering from the lack of rest from exams. At least I was. Half the time I was yawning away. Whenever I found a spot to rest I took the chance. Went for movie but subconsciously I was struggling to concentrate. The movie didn't help in the situation, 'cause it wasn't interesting at all. Predictable plot with okay characters. Anyway the movie's Beowulf. Angelina Jolie's sexy, I totally agree on that, but that hardly helped the story, probably made it look worst. CG's good 'cause I couldn't even tell it was CG until 5-10 mins into the show.

Was suppose to have dinner before heading home but I was way too tired. So I managed to stay awake enough to get a pair of disposable contact lenses to try out. As expected I was told it probably wouldn't fit very well because of my small cornea. Yes, because of my small eyes I need to customise my lenses by using permanent ones. But if the disposables fit it'll definitely save me on quite a sum, since I hardly use them.

So here I am sitting at home nua-ing away. Just received a call from Leon, he's back in hall. Also found out WAT USA sent the 2nd recruitment details already. Gonna look at it tomorrow. Now need to pay slumberland a visit, haven't had a good tour of it in a long time. Hope it has changed much.

22nd year alive.

My 22nd birthday went as quietly as it came. A quiet dinner with my whole family, including sis and bro-in-law and my darling. As the years went by, it dawned upon me that all I wished for just got more and more down-to-earth. Long term and practical wishes, that appear more like goals I need to work towards myself than a wish my fairy godmother can fulfil.

Whatever it was I've grown to appreciate that 22 years ago, my mum had me risking her own health, if not her life. Still I feel guilty as I find myself only consciously telling myself to be extra caring and nice to her only on special occasions. Yet every year I lapse into the vicious cycle, only to feel guilty on these days. I guess my excuse for it is that I'm only human and still a child when I'm with my parents.

Nonetheless the day was simple but a happy one. I had my birthday present from my darling and enjoyed my mum's wonderful cooking. Also the messages from friends, reminding me there are people that care and remember me for more than just a passing image. Thank you everyone.

2000 Hits today!

Okay, this is a bit dumb but yup I hit 2000 views today on this blog. This's my second blog since I started blogging more than 3 years back. Initially it was just to vent some frustration and feelings that couldn't be openly shared. Kept the first blog private, and for the eyes of my very close friends. It was a great avenue for my expression and I surprised myself when I found myself tearing reading my own entries, 'cause I felt so pathetic. Anyway that all in the past, now that I've shifted to the new address it was the web design that kind of interests me. Enjoy shifting my divisions around on the page, adding music, photos, videos. Nothing fantastic but it was fun considering all I had known about html previously was bold, italic and underline.

Hope anyone reading my blog hasn't been bored by my routine lifestyle. Life's toned down a lot since the second year, probably my personal change physically and mentally. Hopefully life will take a pleasant twist in the next year when I step out to work, but before that it's a month before the exams and surprisingly I'm already feeling the heat. For no particular reason I started blabbering my exam dates just now, trying to recall each date. I think I freaked dear out a bit with that. No worries, I'm not going bonkers yet, just stressed and tired. Okay time for a well-deserved rest from a entire night of mugging. Ta~!

JaY!!! 杰伦！！！

啊！Hysteria!! 快要发疯了！杰伦要来开演唱会了！Finally! After 2 years from 无与伦比 2004！Yesterday I was so sad and disappointed I couldn't get the tickets and this morning I was even more disheartened when the server kept showing that the $198 and $168 tickets were left with single seats. BUT lucky lucky me!! Managed to squeeze in just before the server downtime AND called through to hotline to get help just in case I missed the reserved seats. 哈哈！真幸运！杰伦在保佑我！虽然说他的新专辑有一点地跌破眼镜，but I will still 支持他的作品的！啊！兴奋！多么期待明年1月19日的来临，再次的为杰伦尖叫，与多过一万名Jay的歌影迷们来个大合唱。嘿，让我妈知道我花了近两百块卖门票一定被骂到丑头。But I don't really care cause all I know now is that I'm so happy! So happy I can listen to Jay every single day, all the way till his concert, until after his concert even! Let now just indulge in a bit of his glory.

Not bad right? Kinda style. Well maybe I'm just biased. Anyway I'm making sure I buy memorabilia this time round. Go early I pick the ones I want. And I hope he'll have a concert DVD like for Incomparable.

His new album is coming too. As I said earlier, of the song I heard on radio, really 跌破眼镜 but the other songs I heard not that bad actually. Better hit the music stores this weekend to preorder. :P

杰伦万岁！无与伦比！Wonder what will be this year's concert name or slogan.

Gastric Flu

Been down with the worst viral infection since years. Doctor says it's likely gastric flu, if not a mild case of food poisoning. In any case getting much better, after having to go through my 50% oral presentation in cold sweat (from the pain n anxiety) and missing my PE quiz.

Anyway it started on tuesday after dinner. Wasn't feeling too good from the sudden change of hot weather in the morning then shivering cold in the afternoon and evening. So basically I came back to hall feeling a little sniffly. During dinner I ate very little, food wasn't too appetitizing anyway. After that I went back and start having cold hands and feet, so I thought "probably the weather". So I cuddled under my blankie and rested. Tossed and turned but couldn't sleep, then I started sweating like I was having fever. So that's how my whole night went on tuesday.

So on wednesday, I woke up to a bad spell of nausea. Vomitted everything including the water I drank when I woke up. But since the presentation was so important and it involved my other groupmates, I really couldn't jeopardize their efforts. While ironing the top I borrowed from LL (Thanks! I'll return it next week, washed and ironed!), I ran to the toilet and vomitted. On my way to school, I vomitted. When I was in class I was basically pale. Luckily it got a bit better as the day proceeded, so I could still go to the doctor with my dear's company and down half a bowl of fish soup. So grateful to have my darling with me, if not I'll really be feeling extra terrible physically and psychologically.

Now the pain had more or less subsided, but the tummy's still bloated with air which is making it miserable for me. Trying to fart but can't. Applied medicated oil, laid on my tummy, sat in the toilet bowl, all I could get out of that was a single fart. Drats. Hopefully I can get my hands on some ginger tea which I think will be great. Okay back to my trying to fart. Byes.

Hall life

Just celebrated a friend's birthday. Somehow it wasn't as fun as it used to, and that's an understatement. As I recall, back in Year 1 we were less worrisome of our grades or anything for that matter. Now not only have our group size dwindling, it's also less of an enjoyment to be with. With so many things to bog us down, grades, future employment and of course gossips, which is the least of the many concerns. In fact there isn't much of any gossip to speak of, unlike the occasional scandals we joke about just a couple of years back.

Why does hall life have to turn out this way? All memories I had of hall was good if not superb, until a few months back after I returned from IA. How is it possible that things can change so drastically in such a short span of time? The fun and bonding we took so naturally as part of hall living, disappeared just with a snap of the fingers. Of course some still remains, but it's never like it was before. Sitting at the amphi with a good friend, talking about dreams and aspirations, troubles and buried grudges. Taking a nice easy jog around school, chatting on just about anything we thought of. MSN-ing each other about the latest gossips in between discussing tutorials and projects. Late night suppers that end up with having to walk back to hall 'cause we missed the last bus. Sigh.

Hopefully these memories remain deep in all of us despite the many changes, so one day we may think of each other and say "I should try contacting my hallmates for a gathering, it should be fun. Just like the old days."

Sick by the bug.

Seems like a bug is going around affecting everyone in hall, in fact all over school. Probably it's just the hostelites spreading it round when we go school. Haha! Had a bad flu spell over the weekend, which turn to a very very sore throat then now a very dry cough.

Anyway really not in the mood anymore with this entry. Next time then.

Gala Grandeur: Photos!!

Finally after a hectic week of quizzes and assignments I'm sitting here loading my long forgotten DnD photos. Last week was a hectic week with 3 quizzes back-to-back and 2 assignments. Attended the ExxonMobil Recruitment talk and felt so inspired to apply.

One, it's my desired industry. Don't really care if people say it's a dying industry 'cause of the depleting oil resources. Anyway think about it, the supplies are short but it'll probably still last the next 50 years, which is more than enough for my career. Call me selfish but I trust my kids know where they want to work in future where the prospects are good.
Two, gives me the opportunity to eventually move on to a more business-oriented field eventually after I've enjoyed my engineer's life. I've been thinking of marketing, but apparently I was told it's a pretty low-end of business. However my aim is to deal with people and a different field so it suits me. I'll think about it carefully when I apprach that stage of my life.
Three, overseas assignments. Speaks for itself.

Anyway back to the main reason for today's post. Photos!! Some random ones to showcase the different characters that night. Enjoy!


Me with Geisha (Cameraman: Don't kiss me!)


The DnD 07 Comm


The Race King and Queen! wOOhoO!


Gathering of the Rec Secs


Spartans alert!


Princess Jasmine & Little Mermaid


Beauties from all over


Kimono ladies


Queens of Past & Present (with our very own gay boy)

Fireworks - My favourite!

Tried to upload the DnD photos I got over the week (Thanks to Leon C. and Martin!), but blogger.com keeping popping up this error message saying they can't do so.

Anyway just recalled that I've yet to upload the video I took when I went for Fireworks Fest on 18 Aug at Marina Bay. The display was by China, and if you are thinking "Huh... China ah?" think again, fireworks were first invented by the Chinese, so don't under-estimate their standards. Whatever it is I just love fireworks, even if it mean I have to squeeze in crowds just to enjoy it. The sheer excitement and rhythm is just amazing, bright lights and array of colours. So amazing! My sis was with me too, and I think she enjoyed it pretty much too, since she asked for a joint venture of a ritz-carlton room for next year!

Before the display, there was a carnival below the grandstand area too. Loads of stalls with what I presume as aspiring entrepreneurs and their small businesses. Adopted my duckie for the Charity duck race too! Hope he wins this Sunday!

The display started at 8 or so. Took a video of the fireworks which is 15 minutes long. Please don't mind my lousy video skills, half the time I was enjoying the effects so much I forgot about the camera. Anyway it was taken on my 2MP phone camera, but the colours should make up for the lack of clarity, I hope. So hope you enjoy it!

Gala Grandeur: Another DnD well done

Finally got down to blogging again (after being commented that it's not updated *frOwN*), but frequency is a matter of relativity (used to blog once a month previously "p). DnD just went past over the weekend. Although I was initially pretty skeptical, it turned out rather memorable. Throughout this whole period, from FOC till the actual day, the event was dotted with many different 小插曲s, some happy, fun and some better-off-forgotten ones. Whatever it was, luckily I enjoyed myself at the end of the day.

Learnt a lot about myself too throughout this period. For one I'm an EXTREMELY huge attention-seeker. Felt so lousy during trainings cause inferiority sets in. When focus is somewhere else I feel the strong urge to do something to draw it back. Such a out of proportion ego for a girl, total FCP, female chauvinist pig. Notice the use of words here, it's "girl" and not "woman" or "lady", 'cause I totally feel such behaviour is immature and unbecoming of a cultured lady. In fact such behaviour caused much tension between us, and I feel absolutely guilty over it now. Sorry, really. At the same time, I did enjoy playing the 大姐姐 to the young ones, helping them with their performances and encouraging them along when they felt low. They taught me much too, including being myself and being grateful to all things how matter small. Maybe it's innocence. I remember telling myself that, looking at my JC juniors when I was moving on to Uni. Growing up, it's amazing how fast it is, yet we never really notice it till we reflect. To my new juniors in hall, thanks for letting me find back what I've lost over these few years.

All things come with satisfactory and not-so-satisfactory tags. Of the not-so-satisfactory tags, disappointment was one of them. First it was the feeling of backstabbing, then came the poor judgement. Selfishness was one of my worst character, and when I tried to change it by thinking of others for once I felt backstabbed. So I concluded it's a world where "every man's for himself". I shoved it aside and next I saw was another disappointing display of behaviour, which lack basic consideration for others. So I think why are people so dumb to do such damaging acts to their character? Beats me. Just hope they can live with their actions.

Anyway back to DnD. Loads of fun that night, seeing everyone dressed up as some kinda character. I personally was *eR-heM* a sexy race queen *winK wINk*, with my ever dashing F1 racer *gIggLe*. Trying to get the photos from the other still, so will post the really pretty ones up when I do. Although I'm in the comm I felt I did very little work, mainly just talking and commenting. In fact I felt pretty bad being given any recognition at all for it. So if anyone out there feels I suck, I agree with you. To the pageant contestants, grats for all your hard work 'cause it definitely paid off that night in the form of an entertaining evening. Grats to JY (You go girl! Andersonians rawk!) and WS, you 2 really deserve the throne. And so my last DnD in hall ended with a worn-out me, slightly grumpy from the exhaustion and hunger. But inside there somewhere I am glad I was part of it. *sMiLe*

Busy busy buzz buzz

Been pretty lazy recently, just couldn't get myself to start on my FYP, projects and tutorials let alone blog. But well getting the engine going already, organized and planned what I needed to do for my FYP, which was mainly literature research for now. Been keeping up with my modules too, and for my FIRST quiz for the year (special sem not included, since EM is like so duh) I knew what I was writing and when I checked I couldn't really find any fault! Good start to the semester I guess. Pretty proud of myself actually. *gRinZ* Probably the IA break came at a timely part of my uni studies, when it's getting all saturated up there. Hopefully this result keeps up and maybe my chances of a 2nd upper can still be realised.

~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~

Amidst all the prep for preview, as a "avid" (though sadly unappreciated) resident for the past few years, I found time to turn up for the rally and polling. Rally was a disappointing experience for me. Seems that the freshies especially aren't at all aware of what they are getting themselves into. Like I always say JCRC is not a playing field for you to try out your leadership skills, if you really are venturing into it for the 1st time better make sure you've got PLENTY of preparation done. But then again, there were people that convinced me they are ready too. Preparation, vision, sincerity, humility, etc. All the best to them! Back to why it was so disappointing. Rally which was supposed to be where the nominees spoke for themselves and proposed their solutions to the problems residents have been facing, became a war ground between unhappy residents and defenders of the throne (if you get what I mean). Whether a comment is constructive or destructive is what the receipient makes of it, whereas the sender's role is to exercise tact. Apparently both was lacking during that night. (Here I'm exercising tact using very mild language and making very general statements. But then again this is my blog and it's also where I vent my frustration, so here goes.) Don't complain and relieve your guilty conscience by shifting your incompetency to others. If you didn't or couldn't do something admit it. If you did try and couldn't, then explain it crystal clearly, we are not unreasonably punks, anyway I personally didn't like the tone used, let alone the incompetency. Another thing that I felt pretty affected by was how personally issues were taken. The HAS issue of seniors not being able to return to hall was posed to the president nominee, asking for a solution to it. Yet it was taken by the current committee as a blow at them. Seriously speaking, the seniors present probably knew who was the person concerned, how the response was given fell short of my expectations. The issue had a very peaceful answer to it which was feedback, in the sense of from JCRC to the residents whether positive or negative. If a promise cannot be fulfilled, feedback and if possible suggest other solutions, not keep mum and act betrayed when questioned. Losing friendship over such matters is the last time I wish to see.

~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~

Other than all the hu-ha, the whole of last week was taken up mainly by DnD, cause of the pageant preview which jus went past on Saturday. Lots of things happened on top of the normal programme, but that's for another day.

How much you flirt??

How much you flirt??

Question 1
Late at night, you are partying with a friend of the opposite sex. If you don't leave now, you would miss the last bus. What would you do?
a. Who cares...continue to party -- Go To Question 2
b. Ask if he would send you home -- Go To Question 3
c. Say "Good-Bye" to him and run after the bus -- Go To Question 4


Question 2
While having a meal with a friend, you saw that what he/she had ordered seemed quite delicious. Would you ask to have a taste of his/her food?
a. Yes --- Go to Question 5
b. No --- Go to Question 6


Question 3
You saw something nice while shopping but you don't have the means to buy it. Would you...
a. Shrug your shoulders and forget it. --- Go to Question 7
b. Go ahead and flash your credit card --- Go to Question 6


Question 4
You have a job offer that is paying better than your present job. You would...
a. It?s a good offer. Type your resignation letter now --- Go to Question 8
b. The present boss is treating you well. Stay cause of loyalty! --- Go to Question 7


Question 5
Your views on school regulations are...
a. Would never compromise to them. --- Go To Question 9
b. See it there is loopholes and try to get thru them. --- Go to Question 10
c. Would definitely keep to them! --- Go To Question 12


Question 6
A person from the opposite sex expresses his/her love for you would...
a. Smile and think highly of your charms --- Go to Question 9
b. Reject him/her and keep a distance --- Go To Question 10
c. Run off without even answering! --- Go To Question 12


Question 7
You are in your boyfriend/girlfriend's bedroom and you saw a photo of him/her with his/her old flame. You would...
a. See and forget because it?s all in the past. --- Go to Question 10
b. Get real mad and leave the room. --- Go to Question 11


Question 8
Would you rewrite a lecture note again because your handwriting is untidy?
a. Yes --- Go To Question 12
b. No --- Go To Question 11


Question 9
When wearing a pair of mini skirts/ shorts, what would u choose as the top?
a. A tight fitting tee --- Go to Question 13
b. A loose fitting tee --- Go to Question 14


Question 10
On a tour, the tour guide specifically tells you not to venture to a certain area because it's dangerous. Would you out of curiosity, go ahead without listening to him?
a. Yes --- go to Question 13
b. No --- go to Question 14


Question 11
When out with a friend of the same sex, would you hold hands and walk?
a. Yes ---- Go to Question 15
b. No ---- Go to Question 16


Question 12
Wearing a newly bought swimsuit, would you feel especially eye-catching' and 'sharp' when walking by the pool?
a. Yes --- go to Question 14
b. No --- go to Question 16


Question 13
Are you the impulsive type? Always acting on the instant you get the idea without thinking carefully.
a. Yes ---- Type A
b. No ---- Go to Question 14


Question 14
Do you still maintain friendship with your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?
a. Yes ---- Type B
b. No ----- Go to Question 15


Question 15
Every time you pack for a tour, you would always end up packing more than what you need?
a. Yes ---- go to Question 16
b. No --- Type C


Question 16
Do you mind sharing the same cup with others?
a. Yes --- Type D
b. No ---- Type C

-=<{END OF QUESTIONS}>=-


RESULT

TYPE A --- 90% FLIRT
You fall in love easily most of the time getting trapped in a triangular relationship. Adding to the fact that you do not commit to your partner, you enjoy having suitors. To put it simply, YOU ARE FAR FROM FAITHFUL.


TYPE B --- 70% FLIRT
You are partially flirtatious by nature. You enjoy being pampered and pursued by others so occasionally you would harbor the thoughts of 'stepping on 2 boats'. BUT...as you are sensitive to your partner, you do try to restrain yourself.


TYPE C --- 40% FLIRT
You are shy by nature and have only a small circle of friends. This attributes to the fact that you would not have a high chance of getting trapped in a triangular relationship.


TYPE D --- 0% FLIRT
You have high morality and it?s against infidelity. Whoever is with you is the most fortunate but pray that your partner does not belong to any of the above group!

Dethroned.

Second time I'm blogging from the hall's computer room. Sitting here still deciding if I should be waiting for someone for near 3 hours. It's weird that I know I'm being slighted, yet I'm letting it happen to me. Sounds dumb to sit around, loiter around for 2 hours, right? But that's what I'm doing now exactly, if not I'll have long been on the train back home already.

It just been an awfully depressing day, so much that I wish to cry now. But since I'm not exactly alone in the room, suppression is the only way. I feel like such a loner, coming and going alone. It's not independence, I like to call it lack of human relations. I walk to class without a person to sit with, and leave not having anyone to wait for. I stand in the train full of strangers and I return home to an empty house. What have I done to my life? It wasn't like this before. There are friends around, but not those that will go "Hey, where's cynner?" I was just plain forgotten.

Sometimes I feel like a major irritant, getting the shoo-offs and oh-my-god-why-is-she-here. All I know is that I put up a facade of a strong independent new-age woman, yet I lack that self-esteem to really pull it through. I suck. Big time. And yes, I'm still undecided and waiting.

cLueLeSS

I don't like guessing. Predicting and not getting any confirmation sucks. I hate uncertainty. Why can everything be crystal clear? Why do we have doubts? It's tough to react when the signal put forth isn't for the intended response. Like what I revised for my PE today, the receptor receive the signal extracellular and transmit a corresponding response intracellular. If it does fails, there's a problem. So what's the problem? A is said but instead of A', B' is expected. How am I supposed to be 100% accurate in second-guessing everything? When would I know A is supposed to yield A' and not B'?

Similarly, signals send can yield completely unintended responses. It like sendind a signal intracellular for transcription, yet you get cell death. Totally different responses, with completely devastating effects. Isn't it clear enough that when I send signal A I expect to get A' for my response? Why do I get B' so often? Was my signal warped? Direction and mode of transmission skewed? Receptor-unfriendly?

Here I sit tired from the first week of school, travelling a total of 3+ hours to and fro everyday. Unappreciated and babbling on about what I've learnt so far. It's hard but who knows, few do if not none. Is less more? Or will less be always less and more never enough? Physically and mentally drained. It's not just about school. Why do I feel so privileged at times and downright trampled on the next? Seriously I rather get trampled on all the time rather than face such uncertain conditions. At least I can get myself mentally prepared if not physically prepared for the beating.

My last FOC

Despite the detachment throughout the entire camp, can't help but feel pretty sad that it's my last FOC. The batch of seniors who convocated last week came back for the closing ceremony. Had nice little chats and gossips about the hall and its people.

Many things happened over the past year, good and bad. Some people got together while others parted due to various reasons. Many graduated happily, while some left due to no choice. It's always hard to say good-bye. I suddenly understand it so well after tonight. In less than a year, I'll bid farewell to a place I've called home for more than 3 years and to many friends I've grown to live with. It'll be hard to meet up as often, so I really do hope to be able to get back in hall for my final year and spend some quality time with these friends. Also my darling, who I've gotten so used to having around everyday. When working life starts, time will be restricted to evenings after work and weekends, unlike now when we could meet between lessons and immediately after classes.

I feel so blessed in fact that my life has always been smooth-sailing. Never had to worry about doing terribly for school, or short of avenues to exhibit my capabilities. When I thought my love life will never be fairytale-like, my prince fell so suddenly beside me in a somewhat subtle, yet sudden way. Never short of an adventure, yet always within my control. That's my life so far. I'm such a lucky bastard I can't stand it. Thanks everyone.

Feels different...

Been away at camp for the whole of this week. Came back to hall on Sunday just like I would when I was staying in hall, just that now I'm bunking in Leon's room, instead of a room of my own.

That aside first time being a programmer, doing all the behine-the-scene jobs of the FOC. Considering I've always been in the front as a GL or SA, it's still a pretty fresh experience and pretty pleasant change. A greater appreciation to the running of FOC and tolerance to the restrictions they impose.

Other than the positive factors, I can't help but feel pretty isolated in the whole process. Of the final year, I'm the only female around. Pretty sian. Apart from programmer duties, I'm basically tagging along the DnD PCs when they did their interviews and rehearsals. So useless and gen pi chong. Felt so detached from the whole process, as if I'm just being there to make up the numbers. Sadly, to some extent I can't wait to end this whole thing somehow so I can just get home and get back to my isolation chamber. So many things just pisses me off, can't wait for it to just end.

Time to get back to camp, closing ceremony is in less than half hour. Soon it'll be over and I'll be back.

Exams. What's that?

In less than 14 hours, I'll be sitting in an exam hall not knowing what to do. It's been more than 7 months since I last took a paper. Now I'm completely at a loss of what I should be doing to prepare for it. I'm like Where should I start? How should I study? The previously exam-smart me has gone on an extended vacation. Apparently I forgot to send her a reminder about returning to school from her half year break.

So here I sit in front of my computer, blogging away when I should be studying. Reminds me of myself back in Year 1, the night before my Chemistry which I breezed through (considering the fact I'm a Chem Engineering student). The only difference now being I don't know what to do. "p I'll try to try studying.

Can't stand the wayang-ness!

Start of an activities-filled week without leon. Happy or sad I don't really know, 'cause the truth is I shouldn't have the time to ponder over it. Yesterday sent him off at the airport after dinner. Felt quite sian but then thinking about it he'll be back friday morning so it's officially only 3 days' absence.

I CAN SURVIVE IT!

Anyway back to today, went for a temp job at NTUC Centre. Some graduation ceremony for the security industry by WDA. WAYANG TO THE MAX. Basically the scene you see on TV where the whole theatre is always filled is a big hoax. Just 5 minutes before the DPM arrived a group of more than 20 were sent in to fill in the empty spaces. Wayang Number 1.

Then there was this irritating lady who was supposed to be in charge of us. She doesn't seem to like me or my partner and friends very well so apparently the sai-kang jobs were all allocated to us. Follow me here. Go there. What you 2 doing behind? She didn't even bother to answer our queries when we did voice them out and she's criticising that we should take ownership of your jobs. The rest of her stff are just standing around, why not "advise" them instead? In front of big shots, woah, you should see the change in attitude. Wayang (Personnel) Number 2.

Buffet was served after the event and leftovers were horrendous. Compared to the morning when the minister hadn't arrived, the amount was humongous. Basically in the morning there wasn't enough for the graduates and staff. Yet in the after event, when the guests were included, they ordered too much. Wastage. Government money. Taxpayers' money. Our parents' money. Down the drain. Didn't taste too good too. Wayang Number 3.

Goodness man. I hate wayang.

Say NO to Racism! Part II

This is to clear the air on the Tommy Hilfiger racism comments. Received this from another friend saying it was a fraud. Check this page out for the response from Tommy and Oprah on this matter. (Luckily the bottle of perfume is only kept away in the dusty corner and not thrown out yet, but it's time for a new bottle too "p)

http://www.hoax-slayer.com/tommy-hilfiger-rumour.html

Luckily I hadn't committed to believing the email, if not I would have done Tommy Hilfiger a big injustice. But as mentioned it's still NO to Racism!

Say NO to Racism!

Got this off an email from a friend, and I was totally disgusted by the actions of the 2 individuals mentioned. Whether it was true or not doesn't really matter to me, but the presence of racism is still there. Considering the advancements and potential the Non-white communities have been showing these few years, I'm surprised racism is still evident. These people should really wake up and realise we aren't the inferior ones already.

TWO TRUE STORIES ABOUT RACISM

1) I'm sure many of you watched the recent taping of the Oprah Winfrey Show where her guest was Tommy Hilfiger. On the show, she asked him if the statements about race he was accused of saying were true. Statements like "...If I'd known African-Americans, Hispanics, Jewish and Asians would buy my clothes, I WOULD NOT have made them so nice. I wish these people would *NOT* buy my clothes, as they are made for upper class white people." His answer to Oprah was a simple 'YES'. Where after she immediately asked him to leave her show.

My suggestion? Don't buy your next shirt or perfume from Tommy Hilfiger. Let's give him what he asked for. Let's not buy his clothes, let's put HIM in a financial state where he himself will not be able to afford the ridiculous prices he puts on his clothes. BOYCOTT. PLEASE SEND THIS MESSAGE TO ANYONE YOU KNOW. Then send it to the whole community that's not white and see the result. We have to see the result of unity. Let's find out if Non-whites really play such a small part in the world. Stop buying any range of their product, perfume, cosmetics, clothes, bags, etc.

2) Scene took place on a British Airways flight between Johannesburg and London. A White woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess. "Madam, what is the matter?" the hostess asked. "You obviously do not see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."
"Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight is taken. I will go to see if another place is available." The hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later. "Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is a seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class."
Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued: "It is not USUAL for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class. However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting." She turned to the black guy, and said, "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class." At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

Hooray to British Airways and the captain that gave the instructions to give the lady a taste of being discriminated AGAINST. Also to the air hostess with the guts to deliver that instruction so crudely and to the bone. The white lady must be thinking of jumping off the plane at that moment.

Anyway I'm intending to throw out my bottle of Tommy Girl perfume. Luckily I haven't gotten another bottle of it. If anyone's got another fragance to recommend let me know asap.

Mixed feelings.

It was a lazy day for me, probably 'cause I was still a little tired from yesterday. Went to Chong Qing Hotpot @ Suntec with my dear dear. It was a small gathering between him and a couple of army friends. Pretty interesting 'cause it's been 3 years since they ORDed and yet they still seem so buddies. It was like a triple date in some sense too. "p Was pretty nervous before I met his friends since I was expecting myself to be the youngest there and I was afraid there might be a difference in our conversation topics aka frequencies. Only later did I realise how nonsense they can be, and surprisingly very easy to get along. So here's a big HI to my new friends, Benson and Huixia, Sebastian and Daphne.

Anyway back to today, I felt so lethargic at work I asked to leave 2 hours earlier. They probably didn't really mind since I was paid by the hour so I'm paid for WHENever I'm there not WHAT ever I do. Partially it was 'cause I wanted to spend some time with my darling before he left for KL. It's the FIRST time he's away without me. Although it's just for 2 days at KL, I still feel very sian about it. Jialat la, I'm growing far too attached to him liao, next time work sure very sad everyday.

At the same time while I felt sian that my dear is away, I somehow enjoyed meeting up with my ex-colleagues from SBS. They are as usual a very fun bunch in and out of work. Met their ex-colleague KW who is also very fun and nonsense. And I found out CP is DAMN retro! The songs he picked at KTV were all songs I heard when I was back in primary school. Best part was still the MayDay's 恋爱ing where basically the mike didn't really matter 'cause everyone just sang and bounced along (at least I did for most parts "P). Was glad they still remembered to ask us to join them and it probably reminded me to make an effort to catch up with them regularly, if not for the gratitude at least the fun factor.

So now I'm back home, bathed and waiting for my hair to dry. I sit here blogging 'cause no one is there to call me and talk to me before I sleep. :~( It's been less than 6 hours since he left and I'm like that already! I wonder how I'll be like tomorrow night. Just hope he does what he said and sms me often. I miss you darling! :~(

Family time, hopefully the complete one eventually..

Went for a dinner celebration for my daddy's birthday at No Signboard Restaurant at Esplanade. It's a super advanced celebration since my dad and mum will be away for their 二人世界 (er ren shi jie). On cruise for the weekend of my daddy's actual birthday, leaving their poor single daughter ALONE at home for FOUR days! Poor me, but then again that leave me to be king for 4 days too, wOOhOo!

We squeezed 6 into a car, Adrian was behind the wheel and obviously daddy was in the front passenger seat, leaving Leon to squeeze with the 3 ladies in the back. Luckily we are generally of pretty small build so it wasn't that much of a discomfort. I enjoyed my ride hugging on to my darling, with the excuse of leaving more space for my mum and sis. Ka you in progress. Hehehe. When we reach Esplanade, my mummy said a very lame joke, which surprised me, 'cause I never knew she could be so lame! My sis was telling her we are in the "durian shell" aka Esplanade, then she went, "Haven't smell the durian smell leh." The only reactions she got was blank stares from the rest of us and and flying crow with "ah-ah-ah" sign from my sis. So cold.

Reached the place and settled for the set dinner for 6. The food was great, but service was pretty bad. Not in the sense of rude service, but not up to standard as to simple courtesy to customers when serving food, refilling teacups and clearing the table. Luckily the food was wonderful. Lobster salad, shark's fin, No Signboard tofu, cereal fried prawns, steamed crabs, yangzhou fried rice and longan almond tofu. Very fresh and surprisingly I ate a lot even though it was seafood. Learnt something new about eating crabs today. If possible order steamed crabs, especially at such reputatble restaurants, as they'll have to serve the freshest crabs as compared to chilli or black pepper where the taste is masked under the sauce. Yum-yum for my tum-tum!

Other than the food what was nice was the people at the table. Daddy and Mummy, Sis and Adrian, me and Leon. A complete family dinner. Glad my family is mixing well with dear, puts me more at ease each time we have such get-togethers. I'm getting so settled down I feel I'm ready to get married. Oh my god, I can't believe I actually said that! But ya, it was that kind of feeling.

After dinner, the whole family had a slow walk around Esplanade, listening to the outdoor performance and enjoying the night breeze. The only bad thing was the air was pretty polluted with the many smokers around, surprisingly mostly kids who looked like in their teens. Government ban smoking indoors, they change to smoking in masses outside. People, this is the future of Singapore. Very bright indeed.

Anyway I enjoyed myself even though it was just a simple dinner out. Wish we could have these kind of get-togethers more often.

Useless

It's one of those days where I feel totally lousy about myself. Everything seems to be going the wrong way I intended for it to.

Feeling lost and aimless.

Doing all the wrong things and to the wrong people.

Not being able to do something to salvage a situation.

Well, basically I just feel very rot. There's no particular reason or incident that brought about this. It's just one of those very blue days I feel pretty frequently these past few months. Sometimes it gets so bad I just can't hold back the tears. Find myself crying for what seems like no apparent reason. Wrap myself under my blankie and just isolate myself. The difference now being I am already alone, so I am already isolate without the blanket-wrapping. It's such a loser thing to do, getting consumed by my own incapability. I know it yet I still do it. Such a complete idiot.

In the toilet of Marina Square...

Yesterday after crashing in for the DnD PC meeting, me and a group of friends popped over to Yoshinoya for dinner. Naturally after a few hours in an air-conditioned place my bladder was going all jello, so off the to toilet I went. Went in and queued for a cubicle, then I saw a filipino lady sitting by the side in the toilet. She seems in pain but still fine and her friend was with her, so I ignored it and went to finish off my business.

When I came out the toilet was empty other than the lady I previously saw who was in pain. While I washed my hands I observed her through the mirror in front and saw that she had sat herself on the floor, bent over and was moaning in pain. So I stayed with her and rubbed her down while she waited for her friend to return with some water to ease the pain. But when her friend returned with the water she didn't feel any better and kept saying she felt like fainting and dying.

Through my conversation with her, I was led to believe it was menstrual pain so I suggested to her friend to get her some painkillers first. I stayed with her, but in my mind I knew my dear will be worrying about why I was away for so long and probably searching for me. I wanted to leave for a while to inform my dear, but the lady started vomitting and was sprawling on the floor from the pain. Her friend then came back with the painkillers and medicated oil. I then found out she had a mobile and called 995 for an ambulance to come for her, as by this time it seems more like she had food poisoning and was incapable of moving anywhere without the help of trained paramedics. Initially I wanted to help her out but there was only 2 of us and she was of pretty big build.

But of course I still remembered my worried darling so I quickly went back to inform them. True enough he had asked YY and Ben to accompany him to look for me in the toilets. But sadly they looked in the wrong toilets "P. Jokes aside, luckily her friend had looked for some security staff to assist when she went out to get the painkillers. So shortly after I went back with my darling, they came and took over the matter. I made sure she was gonna be taken care off and I return back to Yoshi with my worried-sick dear.

Looking back at it, I was so nervous making that 995 call that I couldn't even describe the location properly. So dumb. Felt terrible messing up everyone's dinner from my sudden disappearance. I was also told to carry my mobile next time even to the toilet "p and yup it would have solved the matter much faster if I had my mobile and called sooner. So dumb dumb, but it did make my day more interesting than usual.

In the clouds.

Last day of work today at BroadcastAsia2007. Pretty fun all this while there. Colleagues were great and easy to get along with (other than a couple that luckily I don't have to deal with much). Learnt some things about working from them as well, about job-hopping, PR and staying out of the shooting range.

Always liked being at such shows 'cause I get to see all kinds of people from all over, especially the Europeans (in particular the French and Italians ;P). Very friendly people who speak to you on equal standing regardless of the age or background differences. Was working at the organisers' office and had to tend to exhibitors and visitors with queries and requests (of course complaints too). Some were very thankful for the help we provided, while some just took for granted good service was part of what they are entitled to as the customer. All I hoped for was just a smile when we delivered what they asked of us.

Other irritating sights were the inconsiderate temp staff that were present during show days. The privilege was given to them to have access to the pantry, but they exploited it by literally pillaging the stocks in the fridge. They being the temp staff who were stationed just outside the office, for shuttle service and entrance ushers. Coming in at such frequent intervals for breaks and messing up the place. I was particularly irritated 'cause I was the one re-stocking the fridge! So after Day 1, my perm staff colleagues said to leave it empty until after lunchtime. Unfortunately, the stock that was to last 4 days were out in 2.5 days. It's fine for me and another temp in the office who were surviving fine off mineral water from the dispenser, but sad for the perm staff there. Some people just can't exercise self-restraint and consideration for others. Disappointed.

On top of that there was another eye sore to the show days. This is going to sound so evil but I've absolute support from my colleagues in the office on this matter. Of those walking in frequently to "patronise" the pantry was 2 ladies. They weren't exactly of very likeable personalities, a bit stuck up and ah-lian so to speak. They weren't exactly of very attractive figure as well, a bit on the full side to put it gently across. If you are asking if I've a problem with over-sized people, the answer is no. The problem I had was they were perpetually in mini-skirts, that wasn't exactly flattering to their figures. As my male colleague like to put it, "Your leg is so FAT, can you don't wear mini-skirts?" Coupled with the action of imitating the actual circumference of their thighs. Pure evil, I say.

Enough on the unhappy moments since there were much more happy ones to remember. Although BCA wasn't as lively as CMMA, we still had our share of action. Just yesterday drama occurred just at the door of the organisers' office. One of the catering staff while transporting some food, tipped his trolley and a canister of laksa toppled from it and splashed over in front of one of the booths. It would have been lucky if no one was hurt from it, but unluckily there were a bunch of very humiliated exhibitors. In the action of spilling the laksa, it splashed very badly (saying "very" is probably an understatment) onto the booth. Everyone that was sitting inside the booth was hit. I hadn't seen exactly how bad everyone was hit, but it was described to me by my colleague. The lady that came in to notify (I wouldn't say complain, since I felt in her position she was rather calm already) us, smelled like laksa. Her boss was half covered in it too. The damage was so large it hit the fascia board that was at least 2 to 2.5m tall. The manager were quickly activated to pacify the exhibitors and operations quickly acted to it by re-carpetting the stained area and sending them back and placing a security for their booth while they were away. After all that action when I walked past the rest of the day I could still distinctly smell the fishy odour from the booth. Eww...

Apart from the drama, I had my share of eye candy, especially from the Italian pavilion. I'll probably would have more if I could venture over to the French pavilion but that was too far of a detour to take, I wouldn't be able to use travelling from office to the registration area as an excuse. Too bad it's over already, but I'll console myself with the fact that they are probably too old or residing too far from Singapore for me. Was praised too to bring it up another level. Wasn't exactly from my most desired parties but it's still a compliment after all. On my way back to the office from the registration area, I walked past a man, probably African American, who gave me a smile so I reciprocated with one too. He then slowed down and told me, "I've been noticing you the last few days and just wannna tell you, 'You look very pretty'." I was like wow, so with the slight delight on my face, I thanked him for it. Definitely boosted my ego there, especially after the morale blow from seeing my friend modelling at the show while I hid away as an office girl earning peanuts. Then I thought Asians are very stingy with compliments, while Europeans, American and basically the rest of them are more open with it. Smiles and niceties are a plenty with them, which made sense since it makes people happy and it costs absolutely nothing to give. I should learn to practise it more, it'll probably make my working life much easier this way too in future. So now I'm still in the clouds with the compliment (since I don't really get them) and hopefully it'll last me for a while till my pay come and brings up my mood again.

Amazing!

Got this clip from my darling, who got it from her sister off YouTube. Simply amazing! You should see how dumbfounded Simon Cowell was. And I agree with my darling MediaCorp should buy the rights to this series and air it here. It'll be an instant hit with such talents.

Aspiring opera singer with an completely ordinary job. Totally taken by his vocal powers. For me who don't understand opera very well, I can still tell he's good and he'll make it far with chance.


Lovable little girl with a dream to perform (and 2 missing front teeth!). Instant smile to the foul-mooded Simon. Excellent pitch, slightly off tempo, but still marvellously adorable! Even Simon couldn't stand it! She was so innocent and totally oblivious to how great her performance was!


Heart-warming story behind it all. The performance was so alive as in literally. The baton was like flying itself! Who could thought baton twirling could be such entertaining. And granny was so excited! Go Granny!


Pure entertainment with great confidence. And guess what he's just a kid!


Never really liked "Unchained Melody" but this boy changed my view. It's the singing and the clarity of it all. See the grin on dad's face! Whack it boy!


Dancing in your bedroom?! What the hell this guys should be out performing long ago! Crap! I thought I'd never like break-dancing but his was so damn smooth! Crap!

Disgruntled

The anger didn't hit until I repeatedly heard the complaints and displeasure from those around me. This new system is throwing everyone off their rockers. Initially the fact that most of us weren't granted a room in the first round was an easily accepted fact that the incoming batch of female freshies were from the dragon year. Dragon year = baby boom, an easy enough equation to understand. 80% for the freshies?! Ridiculous. The argument being that if you are going to fill up the halls with 80% freshies who's gonna be running and organising the events in hall? The freshies can't do that, as their names states they are fresh into hall, they need guidance.

The first event that is going ka-boom is our very much-awaited yearly event FOC. But I guess this year it's gonna be more of a headache than previously. For one you've got a shortage of people, especially when you get people pulling out of the committees knowing that they can't get a room next year. Why do I have to help out when I'm already out of hall? So here on one hand you probably will have more freshies and on the other you already for a fact know you'll have less seniors. How? Luckily you have the people that are willing to help even though they are no longer residents. Then come the next problem: since they aren't residents they won't have rooms, so where do we accommodate them? We happily suggest function hall and function room, saying they could bring sleeping bags and camp a week there. So every morning these seniors will scramble awake to pack away their barang barang, carry it away to wherever will accommodate their stuff and stay enthusiatic while running the games for the freshies who were comfortably sleeping on proper mattresses. The irony of it all. Seniors do the shit jobs and at the end of the hall get treated like dirt and thrown out of the hall. No wonder people choose to pull out of hall.

Subsequently you have committees run by young, inexperienced residents and then they question Why are they doing things this and that way? Well, for your information, there's only a limited number of seniors available to guide them. Most of which who COULD HAVE helped are heartlessly denied a place back to build on what they've started. Some argue that we need to move on and let the younger batch continue what we left behind, but to so abruptly and suddenly cut us off is unreasonable. I'm not talking about just current year 3s but also a number of year 2s.

In some of the year 3s I've seen people slog their hearts out for the hall, jeopardising even their own studies. And just because they were away for the last half a year for attachment and exchange, doesn't mean they've forgotten the hall they've stayed in for 2.5 years. Just as we were returning, we find ourselves locked out and barred. Whoever locked the gates know it themselves, feigning ignorance to the scarifices made for the hall previously. It makes no sense is deciding a person's worth by just 1 year's contribution. It's just not fair.

The lack of appreciation for the seniors inevitably will lead to the diminishing numbers of active alumni in the future. If that's the risk they are willing to take, then I can only wish them all the best.

Talking about this makes my blood totally boil. Sincerely I wish the next JCRC, FOC, DnD and ad-hoc committees good luck. You'll need LOTS of it to work things out.

A lesson learnt.

Never understood the reason why people could be so magnanimous and selfless. Then today I was struck right in the head with the answer.

It doesn't hurt to think of others first or help them. You wouldn't lose a piece of flesh from giving a bit of your time and energy. So what if you feel tired and scarificed your enjoyment time after it all, 'cause at the end of it all you'll feel good from being selfless and hopefully be appreciated. Even if not, it's not about receiving, it's about giving. I believe in karma, so it made sense to me.

Put others in front of yourself. Don't keep thinking "it doesn't benefit me, so I'm not bothered". I reflected upon my previous doings, my style of working, and I realised how selfish I was. I didn't back-stab, betray or do anything utterly despicable, but neither did I spend the extra effort to see if I could help others, especially when it was in my convenience. I felt so ashamed of myself. To say I was brought up to be competitive is just another excuse I gave myself. I don't want to be looked down upon, but it gives me no reason too. I'm a disgrace.

So here I resolve to change that. Constantly remind myself that there's a part of me I can give to others. And good karma will always return to those that deserve it.

Photos on my last day.

Here's some well-taken photos from the last day of IA. Came a tad bit late but well better than never...

My desk at the secluded end of the office, which is furthest spot from the director's office and the managers' cubicle *hehehe*. Often the gathering spot for ha-la-ing especially during the report writing period and the last 2 weeks. The ideal spot for chicken chasing.

Our dear friend Uncle Khai aka Buaya King at SBS. Nonsense but fun to have around. That's us of 3 clobbering him with the molding room tools. In case it isn't clear, I'm with a spanner, Princess's with a brush and Xian's with a hammer. Cool!

Me with my dorky, irritating boss. Yeah I can finally openly complain about him, 'cause IA's officially over! Used to complain about him during breaks and on the way home. Thanks girls for the listening ears!

Bye bye to Lynn's Blu-Blu, my self-proclaimed cousin of BuBu. BuBu is the exact monkey my boyfriend has. Looks totally adorable when u stick his thumb in its mouth!

Xian and me remembering the door which I dreaded going through every morning at 745. I guess most of the time it's just morning blues and lack of sleep.

The 3 of us in uniform at the skyway. The door leads to a flight of stairs somehow only the managers climb, we hardly ever saw anyone else taking it unless they were in a very bad rush. It is also the setting of the "gorilla" slipping onto its butt on a rainy day, a private joke between us girls. Heehee.

Our safety boots which ensure that we kept our toes at work. The one on the right with paste is Xian's (yup, the shiny part isn't just reflection from the camera), the cleanest one is Princess's illegal internal boots and mine at the bottom is the most dented and scratched from kicking the machines.

Our BEFORE photo in the ug** uniform which made us look more "mature". Too bad we had to return them, if not we could have used them to pretend to be part-time sales promoters. *EviL*

Our AFTER photo, the young looking us. Made Princess change too to accommodate to us, even though it wasn't her last day. "P Bye bye to SBS for there on!

Blind as a bat

Lost my specs this afternoon at Sentosa, and now I'm literally blur as sotong when it comes to noticing things. Dropped it on the beach tram. Probably flew out of my bag when the tram jerked and my bag fell over. Felt so insecured the whole day being unable to see clearly. The feeling of being unable to be in control is so terrible, even now as I'm typing this it's basically mainly based on feeling unless I really squint at the screen. While I was without my clear vision, had a couple of weird moments, like being unable to read the menus at the food court, and almost walking into the gents instead of the ladies. As I almost walked in, an uncle behind was like staring at why I was walking the same direction as him. So crap. So embarrassing.

But at least I got a good news when I went to make a replacement. My short-sighted degree went down for both eyes, especially for the left. I was told that the degree is stabilising, but the lazy eye is still there. Blessing in disguise, I guess. As my usual style I picked a plastic and dull red frame, but this time round the frame was a little more classy and mature as compared to the last.

Getting them tomorrow hope it'll be a good change. In the meantime I'll feel my way around and put my contacts into good use.

Last day of IA

Surprisingly relieved from it all. Not really bogged down with those I-miss-everyone and I'm-so-relunctant-to-leave feelings. Feels kind of heartless though. I'm not totally devoid of feelings, but I guess I prefer my student life still. The flexibility of time and the existence of school holidays.

I do miss the people there, with their jokes and nonsense. Definitely not the work there, but the diverse character of people there. Also my ha-la partners, who were either by nature evil like me or were brought to the dark side over the 5 months. Haha! Numerous issues and cursing, with senseless topics during the totally bored times after the grading.

Tonight I'll take a good night's rest after so many nights of gift sourcing and preparations. Hope the effort pays off, as in they truly appreciate the gifts. As for me, I'll appreciate if HR doesn't screw up my last pay-check or else... *eViL gRin*

As I approach the finishing line...

My prof visited last thursday to evaluate on our IA performance. Form to our mentors, collection of our final report and viewing of our presentations and stuff we did for the company thus far. It was a mad rush to finish and prepare the report on wednesday, which isn't a surprise for people who knows my track records for last minute work. I'm proud to say I completed a report of 79 pages in slightly under 2 weeks, and that's not including the appendices which I could have added to the report. Found it too redundant and waste of effort. Anyway my prof liked what he saw and it was a huge "whew" for me certainly. Gotta thanks my mentor for putting a good word or two for me when my prof asked if he had any comments on my performance, considering the mood swings he had to bear during my time under him. Haha.

In any case, it's been very rot ever since the submission of the grades. Helping out here and there at the lab. Luckily my mentor had some things on hand he needed help with so I entertained myself with those for the whole of today. Hopefully I'll get it done by tomorrow so I can say hello to Sentosa on Friday morning. Hehehe!

Anyway thought about what my friend said about missing the place after we leave next week. It's kinda true, in the sense that I'll miss the colleagues and the activities they have. Although the HR is one area to forget, even the journey home on the company bus is one memory to add to the list. The nonsense in the lab, the gossiping during break and chicken chasing during work. (shh!!!) I still prefer school but I can't say I hate the 5 months working here. Well another 1 week to go, so hope it all ends well.

Went for Botak Jones' for dinner. Really good food. Had chicken chop. Breast meat and it was REALLY juicy! But got a little sick of the chips. I guess it was the MSG they added. Made it really dry got the throat after a while. But the meat made it worth travelling the distance for.

Warming up for GSS!

Spent so much over the weekends! And it's all on shoes (and a bag)! Bought 3 pairs of shoes at the Charles & Keith warehouse sale. Was half expecting it to be a madcap crowd there. True enough it was crowded, with fierce aunties grabbing every shoe (whether it came in a pair or not) that was their size at the $5 trolleys. Some were even worse they just grabbed a pile and piled them into their basket. Scary. But luckily there were the better quality shoes around, so being the less "competitive" me I rather pay a bit more.

My dear dear was my carrier for a day, hugging on to my shoebox as if making sure no auntie grabs them away. Thanks darling! Bought a 2.5" heels, totally love it! $19 only leH! Usually gotta pay at least $30 plus to $40 to get a decent pair like that! Got another pair of slip-on heels too. The last pair was a sad sad case, in fact it was the first pair I fancied. Happily asked the salesperson for my size and found out it was the last pair. So I held on the the left shoe while she searched for the other. Once she found it I happily packed it into the box and left. So in the afternoon, dear and me went esplanade roof terrace to rest our tired feet and excited me took out my shoes to try. Put on the left foot. A bit tight but still fitting. Tried on the right. Can't go in. Something's not right. Flipped it around and saw the most horrendous sight. Size 35! My left shoe is a size 36 leh!! Diao. Now I have a pair that I can't fit into. Sad cause I really like it. So anyone with a size 36 left and a size 35 right, let me know. 'Cause I've got a pair to give away. :(

Whatever the case I'm still a happy girl, 'cause the 2.5" heels are really a great buy! Damn, I sound so bimbo. But who cares, I'm just gearing up for GSS. Anyone looking for shopping buddies let me know!

Pool Trick Shots

The boliao things people do to kill time. I'm just wondering why I'm not the one with the pool table. "p

Happy Birthday MUMMY!

Had a rather eventful day. But gotta thank my darling for listening to my complaining the whole of last night about how frustrated I was. I was treated like a punching bag and my dear let me vent my frustration on him. Thanks a mil dear!

Anyway, went for a game of Crossfire at S'pore Discovery Centre with my colleagues. Company's paying for it so why not right? First time coming across the bigger-sized paintballs, quite intimidated at first but being the usual daredevil (and egoistic) me I probably didn't really show it. Haha. Had 4 teams, luckily the team I was against were playing friendly fire. The other 2 competing team were really out to kill! Shooting with auto mode man! I guess that's the difference with working class and poor students. When we play we conserve ammunition, they play they whack and replenish with more ammunition.

Took a headshot from the other team, but I quickly took my revenge in the next round. He was lucky he ran out of rounds and was out of play, if not I'll make sure he's covered in paint and in pain! Haha! Gave another lady a headshot too. Felt pretty bad cause she appeared to be a bit allergic to the paint and had a slight swelling like a big mosquito bite. Sorry! Other than that, during the last team competition I shot her on the wrist at like 5m. It probably hurt a bit, but luckily it was just a glancing shot so she didn't really bruise or bleed. Sorry again!

Had a pretty funny situation amidst the gameplay. It was the elimination round where you had to remain unshot and with ammunition to stay in the game. Objective: Wipe out the other team, either by expelling their ammo or shooting them down. So the game was down to the last 3 people. Me, Gemi (the lady I am going to shoot the 2nd time) and Lau. Under the misled of the referee, I thought I was the only member left in the team against Gemi. So strategy: Shoot at any moving objects. Then the referee went "2 against 1!", so I thought "Shit! Another enemy to wipe out." without considering the fact than it could be my teammate. I saw a head bobbed and I shot!

"Please do not shoot at your own team members!" Then it occurred to me, "Double shit! Shot wrong person!" Went over to check out the person I shot and the first thing he did was wave stop to me and said, “不要射我。”So paiseh! So I quickly siam-ed away embarrassed that I exposed my member's location and even shot at him. So diao and bo sei! But it felt good that at least I took a shot at him. No particular reason, just plain evil.

But during that whole episode, I slipped and brushed my knees quite badly. Tore my jeans and had a bad abrasion on my right knee. My 战利品 for the day. Since I managed to take down the last enemy and win for my team. Haha! Next time I'll proudly wear my torn jeans and say I did this for my team's victory. Bullshit. "P All in all I had a fun time, knowing more people and sweating it out in the game.

Derived some conclusion from the game:
1. We certainly have some very fierce people in the company. Evidence: Shooting on auto mode at 3m distance in the butt.
2. A certain someone is a major camper but you've gotta praise him for his accuracy. Sly and scheming. Shooting from behind and camping away as defence.\
3. Almost everyone in the company is very friendly (if taking this group that went as an accurate sample size). You just need to approach them and initiate a conversation.

Oh! And finally thanks Colin for a alcohol swab and irritatingly painful spray-on dressing. I'll get you for it next time. And also the er-hem you provided (just in case someone came across it and baotoh-ed both of us.

Rushed home after that to bathe and change up. Was bringing my mummy out for a dinner, 'cause it's her birthday! Age I'll be nice I say nothing about it, since it's mummy's day tomorrow so she's still the queen around here. Food was good, but I was most happy about the fact that my dear was sitting with me with my family for a meal. At least my family is interacting with him more. I must make sure everything is fine for both sides if things are to work out in the future. :)

I'm gonna take a rest. My nose is dripping non-stop. Not mucus, but just water and it's irritating cause I cannot just sniff it back. Goodnight.

Bonkers.

Had a totally nutty start to the week.

Monday - Totally blue, anyone within the radius of 5m could have felt it. Didn't feel like interacting with anyone at all. Had an especially strong dislike to a particular presence. Had a few poor victims that suffered splash damage from it.

Tuesday - Pretty hyper, comparing to Monday. Did my project presentation and was totally nervous. Started stuttering halfway through the presentation. Usually doesn't happen, probably 'cause I know there's lots of loopholes to pick on from my project and while present I was just praying tha people don't notice. Scrambled out of the convention hall almost immediately after the questions were over. In fact no one really ask anything. They were either too puzzled and clueless about my project or they couldn't really be bothered to give me a hard time.
Anyway wore my biting heels and of course as its nickname says it bit me even though it was like the 5th or 6th time I'm wearing it. Plaster was my best friend for the day. Luckily it was behaving fine during the presentation.
After scrambling out so quickly, I zoomed to the laboratory for cover and a bit of relaxation to ease the tension inside. When I got back to office, I was congratulated for having survived the presentation and that I was "luckily" picked for the Japan presentation. DAMN IT! I've got to go through it again in a week's time! But of course there was a part of me that was smirking, but still it's a pain to have to go through it again.

Wednesday - Totally hyper, out and over the top. Started mean jokes, name-calling and exaggerated imitations. Karma points went rock bottom today. Realised the office was a zoo, with a kissing fish and puffer fish hybrid, gorilla with an aching butt, hairy monkey, cooked lobster and a coffee-stirring uncle frog. I wonder what else will pop up. Totally mean today.

Such a bonkers start. Hope the rest of the week goes well. Even with the irritating report to finish in 2 weeks' time. Crap.

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Not a good day.

Things didn't really turn out as well as I thought for me today. It's nothing bad, just that I had hoped for it to be better.

Woke up early in the morning to meet my dear at the airport to send a friend off to US. For me, I didn't think too much of the trip since it was for Work & Travel so they'll be back in 2 months' time. I probably would have thought "no big deal" and asked my friends not to bother sending me off. Sour grapes some might say, but I just I'm feeling so 'cause I'm not exactly on the best of terms with these friends who are going off. In fact I had constantly felt a vibe from one of them, a vibe that didn't feel too positive. It's like our acquaintance was just for convenience and to 应酬 only. Whatever. In any case, I felt entirely out of place being there. It's as if I was just a tag-along, being a 跟屁虫. That was the start of the bad day.

Lunch was fine, although again I felt left out but at least I still had my dear's company and attention. Afternoon was aimless, but still it was okay, other than I being very tired for some odd reasons. Slept until 11 in the morning, probably not used to sleeping at 2am. Got to his place for a rest after walking around Parkway.

Thought that dinner would be a good time to spend with him together. Have a simple dinner and chat over coffee, before heading back his place for soccer. Didn't happen. To avoid being too troublesome, I was sent home after dinner and coffee with his family. So now I'm sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, which I know I shouldn't be. I guess I was unhappy for the fact that I was made to feel guilty for making him feel guilty. It wasn't the 1st time that has happened but this time round I just felt worse. Probably was the bad day to start with.

Half Lucky!!

So suay! Okay, I'll be a little optimistic and say I'm half lucky. The other crucial half of my luck went on vacation.

Was relaxing at home listening to my favourite radio station Class 95. So as all avid listeners will know there this contest called Cash Call, so I was listening in and the 3 numbers were in my room phone number! So naturally excited me tried calling in! And I got through! Vernetta picked up the call and went, "Class 95, who's on the line?"
Of course the natural reaction was to reply with excitment. Then she goes, "Hi Cyndi, I'm sure you've got the 3 numbers in your phone number. But it seems you are calling from a private number."
"Yup," with a tinge of suspicion.
"That mean you can't win 'cause I can't verify your number."
I was like "damn"! No fair! Rarely am I so lucky lor! Sian. Could have been $50 richer. Well I guess good things don't come easy, I'll probably gotta try another few times. Haha! Provided I'm as free as I am today sitting at home tapping away on my lappie.

Never mind, I'm contented with Spiderman 3 in the afternoon, even though the popcorn lady gave me the wrong popcorn. Sweet AND salted, MIXED, not caramel ONLY. Didn't get to enjoy my salted popcorn and got a really dry throat from the EXTREMELY sweet caramel popcorn. But Spidey was not bad. Predictable but I like happy endings where the good guys live. Unexpectedly funny though, especially the Daily Bugle editor part. Buzz! Watch the blood pressure! I'll probably have had a heart attack from the endless buzzing. Haha! The only thing I didn't like was why my handsome Harry had to be disfigured and die in the end! Shuai-ge shouldn't die! At least he died a good guy.

Okay, I'm going back to my game. Oh, and all the best to my dear Man United for today's match. Not gonna be easy, but a draw to win at total aggregate shouldn't be impossible. Just hope the away pressure isn't too tough on them. I'll be crossing my fingers tight in my sleep.

Current favourite song

It's like a dream lots of people hope for and can't have. So let's put it in a song like this... (You might wanna stop the autoplay track first.)

Moo moo...

Finally managed to take some proper shots of my dear moo-moo friends that have been loitering around town. Let me introduce them...

Bruce Moo

Moo-rilyn Moo-roe & Char-moo Chaplin

Mr Cool Beef

Elvis Moosley














Just love these guys around. Cows are such wonderful animals. Moo-ve it rocks! If anyone see any other my my moo-moo friends around do let me know k? I think they're probably too busy to visit me. Ask them to send me a postcard with their photos k? Ciao.