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I don't like guessing. Predicting and not getting any confirmation sucks. I hate uncertainty. Why can everything be crystal clear? Why do we have doubts? It's tough to react when the signal put forth isn't for the intended response. Like what I revised for my PE today, the receptor receive the signal extracellular and transmit a corresponding response intracellular. If it does fails, there's a problem. So what's the problem? A is said but instead of A', B' is expected. How am I supposed to be 100% accurate in second-guessing everything? When would I know A is supposed to yield A' and not B'?

Similarly, signals send can yield completely unintended responses. It like sendind a signal intracellular for transcription, yet you get cell death. Totally different responses, with completely devastating effects. Isn't it clear enough that when I send signal A I expect to get A' for my response? Why do I get B' so often? Was my signal warped? Direction and mode of transmission skewed? Receptor-unfriendly?

Here I sit tired from the first week of school, travelling a total of 3+ hours to and fro everyday. Unappreciated and babbling on about what I've learnt so far. It's hard but who knows, few do if not none. Is less more? Or will less be always less and more never enough? Physically and mentally drained. It's not just about school. Why do I feel so privileged at times and downright trampled on the next? Seriously I rather get trampled on all the time rather than face such uncertain conditions. At least I can get myself mentally prepared if not physically prepared for the beating.