Exams. What's that?

In less than 14 hours, I'll be sitting in an exam hall not knowing what to do. It's been more than 7 months since I last took a paper. Now I'm completely at a loss of what I should be doing to prepare for it. I'm like Where should I start? How should I study? The previously exam-smart me has gone on an extended vacation. Apparently I forgot to send her a reminder about returning to school from her half year break.

So here I sit in front of my computer, blogging away when I should be studying. Reminds me of myself back in Year 1, the night before my Chemistry which I breezed through (considering the fact I'm a Chem Engineering student). The only difference now being I don't know what to do. "p I'll try to try studying.

Can't stand the wayang-ness!

Start of an activities-filled week without leon. Happy or sad I don't really know, 'cause the truth is I shouldn't have the time to ponder over it. Yesterday sent him off at the airport after dinner. Felt quite sian but then thinking about it he'll be back friday morning so it's officially only 3 days' absence.

I CAN SURVIVE IT!

Anyway back to today, went for a temp job at NTUC Centre. Some graduation ceremony for the security industry by WDA. WAYANG TO THE MAX. Basically the scene you see on TV where the whole theatre is always filled is a big hoax. Just 5 minutes before the DPM arrived a group of more than 20 were sent in to fill in the empty spaces. Wayang Number 1.

Then there was this irritating lady who was supposed to be in charge of us. She doesn't seem to like me or my partner and friends very well so apparently the sai-kang jobs were all allocated to us. Follow me here. Go there. What you 2 doing behind? She didn't even bother to answer our queries when we did voice them out and she's criticising that we should take ownership of your jobs. The rest of her stff are just standing around, why not "advise" them instead? In front of big shots, woah, you should see the change in attitude. Wayang (Personnel) Number 2.

Buffet was served after the event and leftovers were horrendous. Compared to the morning when the minister hadn't arrived, the amount was humongous. Basically in the morning there wasn't enough for the graduates and staff. Yet in the after event, when the guests were included, they ordered too much. Wastage. Government money. Taxpayers' money. Our parents' money. Down the drain. Didn't taste too good too. Wayang Number 3.

Goodness man. I hate wayang.

Say NO to Racism! Part II

This is to clear the air on the Tommy Hilfiger racism comments. Received this from another friend saying it was a fraud. Check this page out for the response from Tommy and Oprah on this matter. (Luckily the bottle of perfume is only kept away in the dusty corner and not thrown out yet, but it's time for a new bottle too "p)

http://www.hoax-slayer.com/tommy-hilfiger-rumour.html

Luckily I hadn't committed to believing the email, if not I would have done Tommy Hilfiger a big injustice. But as mentioned it's still NO to Racism!

Say NO to Racism!

Got this off an email from a friend, and I was totally disgusted by the actions of the 2 individuals mentioned. Whether it was true or not doesn't really matter to me, but the presence of racism is still there. Considering the advancements and potential the Non-white communities have been showing these few years, I'm surprised racism is still evident. These people should really wake up and realise we aren't the inferior ones already.

TWO TRUE STORIES ABOUT RACISM

1) I'm sure many of you watched the recent taping of the Oprah Winfrey Show where her guest was Tommy Hilfiger. On the show, she asked him if the statements about race he was accused of saying were true. Statements like "...If I'd known African-Americans, Hispanics, Jewish and Asians would buy my clothes, I WOULD NOT have made them so nice. I wish these people would *NOT* buy my clothes, as they are made for upper class white people." His answer to Oprah was a simple 'YES'. Where after she immediately asked him to leave her show.

My suggestion? Don't buy your next shirt or perfume from Tommy Hilfiger. Let's give him what he asked for. Let's not buy his clothes, let's put HIM in a financial state where he himself will not be able to afford the ridiculous prices he puts on his clothes. BOYCOTT. PLEASE SEND THIS MESSAGE TO ANYONE YOU KNOW. Then send it to the whole community that's not white and see the result. We have to see the result of unity. Let's find out if Non-whites really play such a small part in the world. Stop buying any range of their product, perfume, cosmetics, clothes, bags, etc.

2) Scene took place on a British Airways flight between Johannesburg and London. A White woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess. "Madam, what is the matter?" the hostess asked. "You obviously do not see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."
"Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight is taken. I will go to see if another place is available." The hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later. "Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is a seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class."
Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued: "It is not USUAL for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class. However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting." She turned to the black guy, and said, "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class." At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

Hooray to British Airways and the captain that gave the instructions to give the lady a taste of being discriminated AGAINST. Also to the air hostess with the guts to deliver that instruction so crudely and to the bone. The white lady must be thinking of jumping off the plane at that moment.

Anyway I'm intending to throw out my bottle of Tommy Girl perfume. Luckily I haven't gotten another bottle of it. If anyone's got another fragance to recommend let me know asap.

Mixed feelings.

It was a lazy day for me, probably 'cause I was still a little tired from yesterday. Went to Chong Qing Hotpot @ Suntec with my dear dear. It was a small gathering between him and a couple of army friends. Pretty interesting 'cause it's been 3 years since they ORDed and yet they still seem so buddies. It was like a triple date in some sense too. "p Was pretty nervous before I met his friends since I was expecting myself to be the youngest there and I was afraid there might be a difference in our conversation topics aka frequencies. Only later did I realise how nonsense they can be, and surprisingly very easy to get along. So here's a big HI to my new friends, Benson and Huixia, Sebastian and Daphne.

Anyway back to today, I felt so lethargic at work I asked to leave 2 hours earlier. They probably didn't really mind since I was paid by the hour so I'm paid for WHENever I'm there not WHAT ever I do. Partially it was 'cause I wanted to spend some time with my darling before he left for KL. It's the FIRST time he's away without me. Although it's just for 2 days at KL, I still feel very sian about it. Jialat la, I'm growing far too attached to him liao, next time work sure very sad everyday.

At the same time while I felt sian that my dear is away, I somehow enjoyed meeting up with my ex-colleagues from SBS. They are as usual a very fun bunch in and out of work. Met their ex-colleague KW who is also very fun and nonsense. And I found out CP is DAMN retro! The songs he picked at KTV were all songs I heard when I was back in primary school. Best part was still the MayDay's 恋爱ing where basically the mike didn't really matter 'cause everyone just sang and bounced along (at least I did for most parts "P). Was glad they still remembered to ask us to join them and it probably reminded me to make an effort to catch up with them regularly, if not for the gratitude at least the fun factor.

So now I'm back home, bathed and waiting for my hair to dry. I sit here blogging 'cause no one is there to call me and talk to me before I sleep. :~( It's been less than 6 hours since he left and I'm like that already! I wonder how I'll be like tomorrow night. Just hope he does what he said and sms me often. I miss you darling! :~(

Family time, hopefully the complete one eventually..

Went for a dinner celebration for my daddy's birthday at No Signboard Restaurant at Esplanade. It's a super advanced celebration since my dad and mum will be away for their 二人世界 (er ren shi jie). On cruise for the weekend of my daddy's actual birthday, leaving their poor single daughter ALONE at home for FOUR days! Poor me, but then again that leave me to be king for 4 days too, wOOhOo!

We squeezed 6 into a car, Adrian was behind the wheel and obviously daddy was in the front passenger seat, leaving Leon to squeeze with the 3 ladies in the back. Luckily we are generally of pretty small build so it wasn't that much of a discomfort. I enjoyed my ride hugging on to my darling, with the excuse of leaving more space for my mum and sis. Ka you in progress. Hehehe. When we reach Esplanade, my mummy said a very lame joke, which surprised me, 'cause I never knew she could be so lame! My sis was telling her we are in the "durian shell" aka Esplanade, then she went, "Haven't smell the durian smell leh." The only reactions she got was blank stares from the rest of us and and flying crow with "ah-ah-ah" sign from my sis. So cold.

Reached the place and settled for the set dinner for 6. The food was great, but service was pretty bad. Not in the sense of rude service, but not up to standard as to simple courtesy to customers when serving food, refilling teacups and clearing the table. Luckily the food was wonderful. Lobster salad, shark's fin, No Signboard tofu, cereal fried prawns, steamed crabs, yangzhou fried rice and longan almond tofu. Very fresh and surprisingly I ate a lot even though it was seafood. Learnt something new about eating crabs today. If possible order steamed crabs, especially at such reputatble restaurants, as they'll have to serve the freshest crabs as compared to chilli or black pepper where the taste is masked under the sauce. Yum-yum for my tum-tum!

Other than the food what was nice was the people at the table. Daddy and Mummy, Sis and Adrian, me and Leon. A complete family dinner. Glad my family is mixing well with dear, puts me more at ease each time we have such get-togethers. I'm getting so settled down I feel I'm ready to get married. Oh my god, I can't believe I actually said that! But ya, it was that kind of feeling.

After dinner, the whole family had a slow walk around Esplanade, listening to the outdoor performance and enjoying the night breeze. The only bad thing was the air was pretty polluted with the many smokers around, surprisingly mostly kids who looked like in their teens. Government ban smoking indoors, they change to smoking in masses outside. People, this is the future of Singapore. Very bright indeed.

Anyway I enjoyed myself even though it was just a simple dinner out. Wish we could have these kind of get-togethers more often.

Useless

It's one of those days where I feel totally lousy about myself. Everything seems to be going the wrong way I intended for it to.

Feeling lost and aimless.

Doing all the wrong things and to the wrong people.

Not being able to do something to salvage a situation.

Well, basically I just feel very rot. There's no particular reason or incident that brought about this. It's just one of those very blue days I feel pretty frequently these past few months. Sometimes it gets so bad I just can't hold back the tears. Find myself crying for what seems like no apparent reason. Wrap myself under my blankie and just isolate myself. The difference now being I am already alone, so I am already isolate without the blanket-wrapping. It's such a loser thing to do, getting consumed by my own incapability. I know it yet I still do it. Such a complete idiot.