Council Chalet 2007

5th year running although dwindling but still existent. In fact it's still a pretty substantial group of people still in touch. It's a special year because some of us are actually part of the working society. Although new but the transition is inevitable. Lifestyles changed, but luckily personalities remained. I can still identify each person with particular trait(s).

Guilty as charged, of the 5 years, I've probably attended only twice or thrice, something I don't even remember. But this year somehow I felt if I hadn't gone for it, I'll probably never again. It's the transition I'm feeling where lifestyles change and people drift away. Something I've talked about ever so often, about people coming and leaving. I can't control the people coming (which I really don't mind), but I seem to be unable to stop the leaving (which really affects me socially). My network of friends continue to dwindle as I find more people leaving than coming. Yes, the bonds between the few may be strong but paths are going to diverge someday and whether we like it or not, the bonding is going to weaken from the sheer geological difference. Sounds real heavy eh?

But nonetheless I really felt happy I went for it despite the dilemma I felt before it. Maybe we've all grown, somehow the barrier I use to feel with some have just lifted. Talking with them no long feels as superficial as I used to feel. With age, I appreciate the presence of those that ever walked with me in life. Who cares if it has to make an impact or not, as long as it's good company.

Priorities.

I'm sitting back in hall, when I had earlier turned down Ruth to help with getting stuff for the chalet. Feeling pretty bad now as I've seemed to made quite a few empty promises this week.

For one I forgot about the chalet which was today, and was only reminded when Ruth had asked for my help. So in between that I had promised L I'll be around till Saturday with him. He had IH Snooker and I thought he could do with some support after Wednesday's matches. So now I'm missing his Saturday's matches for chalet, and I'll be prematurely ending my chalet appointment to make up for missing his games. Two parties all on the losing end, all because I couldn't make good of my promises. Goodness, I really suck as being a friend and girlfriend. Sorry.

Inspirations. The real world.

Stumbled across this song while I was studying for exams last week. Used to give me a lot of advice and inspirations. A self-composed song by the Aussie duo Savage Garden (Darren Hayes & Daniel Jones), it's one of the many chart-topping hits they've come up with in just 2 albums.

Lots of what is said in the song is just a true reflection of things and happenings. Many of which we choose not to admit ourselves. My personal favourite is the chorus where he mentions about karma. Probably 'cause I'm a believer of karma, "what you give is what you get returned".

On some website people are debating on the lyrics and some even mentioned wanting it played on their funernal! Here's one
: http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Affirmation-lyrics-Savage-Garden/E496B75585F5F928482569990018ACBB

And for those interested in learning the song as in playing it, hope this helps:
: http://www.guntheranderson.com/v/data/affirmat.htm

~"~
Affirmation

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
~"~

Other than this, there are many other great songs by them, but of the one that caught my attention were the ones that really spoke of the cold, hard truth of life. Like , a song to Dawson's Creek, telling us we've gotta move on.

Nothing big happened that inspired me to write this, but I just felt that such composers like them should not be forgotten. Songs like these should get a little more credit, other than just entertainment. Ponder upon it.

Relaxation

The week after exams, coincidentally also mine and Leon's birthday. Delayed celebration to today due to his FYP. It wasn't much of a celebration just a relaxing day out. Then we realised we were still pretty much suffering from the lack of rest from exams. At least I was. Half the time I was yawning away. Whenever I found a spot to rest I took the chance. Went for movie but subconsciously I was struggling to concentrate. The movie didn't help in the situation, 'cause it wasn't interesting at all. Predictable plot with okay characters. Anyway the movie's Beowulf. Angelina Jolie's sexy, I totally agree on that, but that hardly helped the story, probably made it look worst. CG's good 'cause I couldn't even tell it was CG until 5-10 mins into the show.

Was suppose to have dinner before heading home but I was way too tired. So I managed to stay awake enough to get a pair of disposable contact lenses to try out. As expected I was told it probably wouldn't fit very well because of my small cornea. Yes, because of my small eyes I need to customise my lenses by using permanent ones. But if the disposables fit it'll definitely save me on quite a sum, since I hardly use them.

So here I am sitting at home nua-ing away. Just received a call from Leon, he's back in hall. Also found out WAT USA sent the 2nd recruitment details already. Gonna look at it tomorrow. Now need to pay slumberland a visit, haven't had a good tour of it in a long time. Hope it has changed much.

22nd year alive.

My 22nd birthday went as quietly as it came. A quiet dinner with my whole family, including sis and bro-in-law and my darling. As the years went by, it dawned upon me that all I wished for just got more and more down-to-earth. Long term and practical wishes, that appear more like goals I need to work towards myself than a wish my fairy godmother can fulfil.

Whatever it was I've grown to appreciate that 22 years ago, my mum had me risking her own health, if not her life. Still I feel guilty as I find myself only consciously telling myself to be extra caring and nice to her only on special occasions. Yet every year I lapse into the vicious cycle, only to feel guilty on these days. I guess my excuse for it is that I'm only human and still a child when I'm with my parents.

Nonetheless the day was simple but a happy one. I had my birthday present from my darling and enjoyed my mum's wonderful cooking. Also the messages from friends, reminding me there are people that care and remember me for more than just a passing image. Thank you everyone.