Farewell Grandpa

He left quietly in the morning. He chose to be alone. Probably didn't bear to have his children send him off. Maybe he felt the grief will be too much for them. He somehow had it all planned.

Yesterday evening, I received the call with the news from my sister. Mum had told her not to inform me until they were sure I had finished my exam. Everyone seemed so calm. Everyone was prepared for it. I was too. When I went down to the wake, no one was sad, or at least no one was showing it. They were either chatting, folding "money" for grandpa or entertaining the distant relatives that came to pay their respects. I joined my cousins and burn some "money" for grandpa. We ended up catching up with what each of us are doing. It was bonding between the family at a occasion of separation. Ironic, but I guess we can take it as the passing down of the bond. Our grandpa's bond with us, passed to us to strengthen our bonds with each other.

There are still issues unsettled in the family but all seems minute at such a time. Grandma's health is one, but it seems like a blessing for her at a time for this. Mummy told me she cried when they brought her to see grandpa, but soon after she left she couldn't remember a thing she saw. It was amusing to know that she thought it was because she hadn't taken care of grandpa. She didn't know about grandpa's condition, or maybe I should say she couldn't remember.

Whatever the case, grandpa planned it out for us and made sure everyone was mentally prepared for it too. Thank you, grandpa. Rest in peace.

Fragile

Was in the hospital the whole of last night. The beeping of the machine and the hard breaths through the respirator. How can life be so fragile? The family that didn't seem very close to start with, all seem to feel the pain yesterday. The decision was hard, but it seemed right. It was painful for him and it was for us to see him that way. Mummy was so upset I really didn't know was to do. Please stay strong and get well, grandpa. At least for my mummy's sake.

Grad trip Excitement

Just attended a time-wasting orientation by our sponsor for our Work-and-Travel program. I don't understand why they call themselves our sponsor 'cause I ain't receiving any money from them! "p

That's side-tracking from the purpose of this entry which is to show how excited I'm getting!! wOO-hOo!! Yup it's official, the employer has been fixed, the tickets are booked, it's just left with my lugguage to pack. Still a tad bit early to pack considering I'm still having exams and FYP's not finished (Anyone with contact for A1 poster printing please let me know k?). Was talking to ML during to orientation and it seems like her excitement was pretty contagious and I'm infected! We have the option of travelling to Mexico even! wOo-hOO!! But that's provided the rest of my group wants to, but Las Vegas's good enough! Met more friends just now which also added to the excitement. My 1st 3 month JC 绯闻 senior during was going too on the same flight, which is so 巧! The 绯闻 was just a prank played by the seniors then, so don't read too much into it. Haha! Don't wish to set my expectations too high, 'cause I'm afraid I wouldn't get much travelling time since I'm planning to come back for convo. But no regrets 'cause the friends back at home are pretty fun to be with too, not to forget the convo ball! If anyone knows of any DIE-DIE-MUST-VISIT places in US especially in the West, TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME!!! Need to plan my time (and money) carefully. "p

As for job search, I'm trying not to get too troubled over it. I guess I'll survive as long as I'm not picky. Just hope for the best.

《那女孩对我说》

心很空天很大云很重
我恨孤单却赶不走
捧着她的名字
她的喜怒哀乐
往前走多久了

一个人心中
只有一个宝贝
久了之后
她变成了眼泪
泪一滴在左手
凝固成为寂寞
往回看有什么

那女孩对我说
说我保护她的梦
说这个世界
对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我
但是她并不晓得
遍体麟伤的我
一天也没再爱过

那女孩对我说
说我是一个小偷
偷她的回忆
塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由
只想背着她的梦
一步步向前走
她给的永远不重

Got pretty hooked on this song recently. Sweet and Simple

Final Dash

Haven't been a good girl when it comes to blogging and keeping my friends and readers updated. But trust me this is going to change.

WHY?

It's my last semester in school. The last time I can see occupation on an application form and write "STUDENT". Reality started to kick in a couple of weeks back when I was rushing my FYP and design project. Whether or not I'll be doing what I'm currently studying isn't the issue. The fact that being away from school equates to end of hostel life, end of lecture chit-chatting, end of tutorial and assignment rushing (this is probably the only good thing). Doing an assignment wrongly in school merely just means poor grades, nothing too extreme such as expulsion. Working is another thing altogether. Daddy kept telling me "Working is different", but it's something I've yet to truly discover even after attachment and the part-time stints.

Lucky for me this exam period isn't that stressful, so that cuts back on 1 bad school memory. Design's bad, but it was pretty fun staying back with friends in school, seeing each other stress ourselves dry. Starting to miss my hostel life too. The late nights, suppers, LAN gaming, illegal MJ sessions, meeting my dear everyday. My life's changing and I don't know if I can handle it. Maintaining relationships will be tougher, considering the amount of time and chances to meet is much much lesser.

Whatever the case, let's just all jiayou for now! The last month of our carefree student life. Live it to the max! UsH!! LOL!