It's one of those days where nothing seems to go as you would have preferred it be. After a nearly perfect week of the valentine's hype, this week was far from anything I consider good. In fact to say that is a total understatement, it's bad if you asked me.
Supposed to be mugging away for my quiz in the afternoon, but I'm just not in the mood at all. Nothing's going in anyway. There a constant clash to plans, which isn't in my control either. It's an "either-or" situation, no compromise or any shit like that. I hate it.
It feels worse when others can't understand that it's not a matter of first-come-first-served, but importance of reponsibilities. If I had the choice, I wouldn't want to have to constantly change my holiday plans over a stupid project that just wouldn't work.
The once motivated and on-the-ball attitude has gone back to its hometown. It's hard to get moving even if I've managed to start. I guess it's all because of myself, no one else to blame. Feel like a total loser. A jerk that screws up. A scum to the people I'm around. Sometimes I wonder, am I still good at anything? I seriously doubt, probably just at messing up my life.
