Finally got down to blogging again (after being commented that it's not updated *frOwN*), but frequency is a matter of relativity (used to blog once a month previously "p). DnD just went past over the weekend. Although I was initially pretty skeptical, it turned out rather memorable. Throughout this whole period, from FOC till the actual day, the event was dotted with many different 小插曲s, some happy, fun and some better-off-forgotten ones. Whatever it was, luckily I enjoyed myself at the end of the day.
Learnt a lot about myself too throughout this period. For one I'm an EXTREMELY huge attention-seeker. Felt so lousy during trainings cause inferiority sets in. When focus is somewhere else I feel the strong urge to do something to draw it back. Such a out of proportion ego for a girl, total FCP, female chauvinist pig. Notice the use of words here, it's "girl" and not "woman" or "lady", 'cause I totally feel such behaviour is immature and unbecoming of a cultured lady. In fact such behaviour caused much tension between us, and I feel absolutely guilty over it now. Sorry, really. At the same time, I did enjoy playing the 大姐姐 to the young ones, helping them with their performances and encouraging them along when they felt low. They taught me much too, including being myself and being grateful to all things how matter small. Maybe it's innocence. I remember telling myself that, looking at my JC juniors when I was moving on to Uni. Growing up, it's amazing how fast it is, yet we never really notice it till we reflect. To my new juniors in hall, thanks for letting me find back what I've lost over these few years.
All things come with satisfactory and not-so-satisfactory tags. Of the not-so-satisfactory tags, disappointment was one of them. First it was the feeling of backstabbing, then came the poor judgement. Selfishness was one of my worst character, and when I tried to change it by thinking of others for once I felt backstabbed. So I concluded it's a world where "every man's for himself". I shoved it aside and next I saw was another disappointing display of behaviour, which lack basic consideration for others. So I think why are people so dumb to do such damaging acts to their character? Beats me. Just hope they can live with their actions.
Anyway back to DnD. Loads of fun that night, seeing everyone dressed up as some kinda character. I personally was *eR-heM* a sexy race queen *winK wINk*, with my ever dashing F1 racer *gIggLe*. Trying to get the photos from the other still, so will post the really pretty ones up when I do. Although I'm in the comm I felt I did very little work, mainly just talking and commenting. In fact I felt pretty bad being given any recognition at all for it. So if anyone out there feels I suck, I agree with you. To the pageant contestants, grats for all your hard work 'cause it definitely paid off that night in the form of an entertaining evening. Grats to JY (You go girl! Andersonians rawk!) and WS, you 2 really deserve the throne. And so my last DnD in hall ended with a worn-out me, slightly grumpy from the exhaustion and hunger. But inside there somewhere I am glad I was part of it. *sMiLe*
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