Thanks for all the encouragement

Ok, it's time to explain my absence for the last 2 weeks. I admit I was basically too lazy to blog 2 weeks ago. Whereas for last week I was really bogged down with quizzes, all of which i probably all "buang-ed". Oh there was the intensive driving lessons too. Why? 'Cause I'm taking my retest TOMORROW! Wish me luck! Hmm... *pRaYinG vEry vEry haRd*
Been very distracted the past weeks. I don't know if it's a good thing though. Looking at the big picture it certainly isn't, 'cause I probably wouldn't be able to study very effectively for the exams which is like less than a week away. Sigh. Get some sense into yourself girl! You don't want things to go wrong because of lousy grades. You made a promise to yourself that if your grades are affected this is not going to carry on and I'm sure you don't want this to happen. Sigh again.
Never felt like this before. To miss someone so often so much. I think I can now understand the feeling of the chinese saying "to not meet for a day is like going through 3 autumns". It's a mixed feeling of happiness, worry, anxiety and anger. Happy that he ever came into my life and open my shut-out mind. Worried that I may not be good enough and that I may not be able to concentrate. Anxious in a good way about what is to come for myself in the coming days, months and even years. Angry that I'm not dealing with this with a rational mind, prioritising my responsibilities. I wish not to have external factors affecting what may could blossom into a very beautiful chapter or even chapters in my life journey.
Thanks to all my friends who have been encouraging me constantly. Specially to Wilfred. I owe you a BIG one for always keeping a watchout for me and constantly keeping my on track. Although we've only known each other for less than a year but you have definitely left a deep impact in me. I've really learnt a lot from you.
This is for Jan. Don't stress yourself out too much k? Sometimes I feel you such a kan-chiong spider I don't know what to do with you. Take things on a lighter note sometimes. Your mind can only take so much pushing. I know you can do it, you always have. Remember you always remain in top spot in my heart k? *sMiLeZ*
Time to hit Microsoft Word and write my essay on Sense of Meaning & Purpose and also my notes and practise my maths. Oh! And hit the bed early too! Driving test tomorrow!