Your space, my loneliness.

Here I sit in front of my laptop thinking of what he just said to me a moment ago. I'm not angry, neither do I feel happy or sad about it. I don't know how I should feel about it, 'cause I don't know what he was thinking or how he was feeling when he made the remark. It's distracting me so much that I'm in no mood to do anything. I need a sign. Sigh.
Maybe I don't feel as strongly as he does, since I never had anyone I'm particularly close to ever since I moved into hall. I thought my roomie would be good company, but it ended up that the only company I had then was my laptop and my endless daydreams. I don't know why but tears threaten to well up my eyes. Am I disrupting his social circle? Leaving no room for his friends? I'm not angry 'cause it's only human to connect better with his guy friends, and his life does not revolve solely around me. Neither does mine. But I can't help it, each time I feel lonely I think only of him and no one else. It comes ever so naturally. Right now as the raindrops splash in through the window, how I wish he was here to help me shut the windows and warm my cold wet hands. I really do.
But it's not fair to him, neither is it to his friends. It's not fair that I'm such a tyrant. To want to dominate and demand his presence 24-7. Sometimes I just want to live in a fairytale where the princess only duty is to enjoy and to live happily ever after with her prince. Never happens. Happily ever after doesn't exist. Fairytales give false hopes. I really feel so happy with him, so secure that I start dreaming of our future together. How I should start saving up for our family, how I can design our future love nest, how we will bring up our kids. Seems far, I know, but it just shows how I really want to be with him. I'm not trying to force this relationship to work, 'cause I can just feel it working. Naturally.
So please, if you need the space, let me know. Hint it to me, 'cause being so domineering with everything about you I may not be able to take it directly. Call me a tyrant, but I really care too much. I really don't care if others say I'm over-possessive.