Confused

Sometimes I wonder what I really want.
When it seems I already have it, it doesn't feel right.
When I start doubting it, I starting questioning myself instead.
Sometimes it seems all peaceful, sometimes everything just seems to repel.
Is it because I don't make enough effort to understand? Or is it I'm too difficult to comprehend?
Then again, could it be that my emotions and intentions are overly opened and readable that it seems I don't consider cirumstances?
When I tell myself to put it aside and try to divert my attention, at the back of my head the images and possiblities constantly flash through.

Maybe I'm tired.
Maybe it is really draining.
Maybe it's my fault.
Maybe it's not.
Maybe I need to try harder.
Maybe I need to not try so hard.
Maybe I need time alone.
Maybe I need time not so alone.

I'm just confused.