Since becoming a wife and daughter-in-law, then a mother, there have been many times I had to juggle my relationships. Trying to give each one a supposed ranking and priority, which honestly isn't fair to anyone. How do you judge if your parents should take priority over your in-laws? Or your husband over your daddy? Each situation warps the usual decision matrix. A sick husband, a possibly contagious niece that should be kept apart from your own little one, with a daddy dearest looking forward to spending his birthday with his forever lil girls. Trust that the husband will be able to take care of himself and handle the lil one, risking the possibility of being label an irresponsible wife and mother? Or disappoint the man that slough his youth providing for his lil girls sacrificing his chance during younger days to enjoy life's pleasures, and be labeled an unfilial daughter? Sure either choice could not end in as drastic of an outcome, but the personal struggle to have to pick a choice still hurts. In the end the in between choice always ends up disappointing all parties. Everyone had to make a compromise. Nobody gets their wished outcome.
While I may self-console that I am strong I can handle relationship dilemmas. My family and friends are understanding and can see my predicament and meet halfway in their expectations. It is a personal failure on my part to be unable to reach their expectations.
I am no Wonder Woman, although I wish I am. I am daughter. I am wife. I am mother. And most importantly I am self, that I have no issues prioritizing. For if there is no self, there is nothing else.
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