A very special day for me today. Nothing to do with yesterday's NTU Open House, which was kind of a flop from my point of view, since I didn't think response was fantastic at all. A few miserable souls loitering here and there, but still the DnD comm had our share of fun ourselves there.
Okay, back to why today's a day I'll be marking in my diary. And when I mean today I mean like March 14. Then you'll probably wonder "It's not even 4 hours into the day, what can possibly make it so memorable?" For starters, I saw my very first shooting star, with my very own eyes. Not on the news or any documentaries, but in the sky seen from the NTU campus. There I laid in the middle of NIE basketball courts with him. Just that very moment, a bright but sadly shortlived shooting star shot across and both of us caught it. Of course my natural instinct was to make a wish. So I quickly held my hands together, not even taking any chance to miss a second by letting go of his hand first, and made my wish. The wish shall remain a secret though. What made it extra unique was the appearance of the second shooting star, but this time round it was much more faint. Still both of us turn our gaze back to the sky just in time to catch it. Our first TWO shooting stars in one night, together with each other. Maybe I'm just lucky, just like being able to be with him. Or maybe it is him that's bringing me the luck. In fact I saw a third one myself which he didn't see, but what makes shooting stars special if when you have someone to see them with. Tonight the distance between us just got nearer. I don't know why I didn't hold back like I used to, but I guess it's probably because he's the right one.
Still he told me something which puts me in a very disturbed position, that he thinks he would likely not be my last. The reason he was still willing to be with me even though he was already getting tired of getting in and out of relationships was that hopefully someday when I find myself lost and alone I'll think back and remember him and maybe he'll have a second chance. I don't know if I'm getting his idea right, but I guess it's what he means. We are both uncertain, but please give me some time and I'll make sure I learn and do my part. He's probably right by saying by the time I reach 20 or more, my expectations and mentality will change and I might find the both of us going in separate directions. In any case, let's look at now can we? I don't wish to think of what possible endings may happen. For now I just want to know we both feel right about it and that you are still holding dear along this journey. Being able to love and feeling loved in return.
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