Emotions run wild.

Haven't been blogging for the longest time. (What's new? You do that all the time anyway. Doesn't really matter cos I doubt you have regular readers from your bad reputation of infrequent updating.) Been pretty much a roller-coaster ride in relation to my feelings recently. Out of the blue yesterday night I found myself sobbing away to sleep. Why? 'Cause I felt lonely, especially this period when my darling is busy studying and finishing up his projects with his super irritating team-mate. The usual sensitive and caring boyfriend suddenly just POOF! and was gone for the entire 2 weeks he was rushing the project. I wouldn't be asking too much from him too, considering the time from now till his exams are like so short. Lonely days are here to stay. At least for the next month or so.

Felt pretty useless around at work too. For some reason I couldn't seem to get my engine going at work. There's always a headache lurking at some discrete corner of my head that only pops out when I start working and breaks my whole momentum. Haven't been in my best of health lately too. Took 3 days of MC for the last 2 weeks. Cough, which is now a sore throat that jus wouldn't go away. Flu, which is now like a permanent running tap that like to occasionally clog up on me. Fever, that is giving me regular headaches or so I blame it on. It all adds up to a very lethargic me. Work sucks, especially for the last month at least. Boo-hoo!

Went back to school and hall for events but felt so out of place. It's like people go "Hey so long never see you liao!" and that pretty much it to the conversation. The feeling of "click" is just gone. Walked around school and felt like a stranger rather than a student there, which is weird considering the fact that I AM a student there still. Hall is no longer as lively as I knew it. Maybe it is to others, but it certainly isn't lively to me. So distant. many friends are gonna be graduating this year at well the engineering courses seniors and the business people from our batch. Sad another split road in life. Somehow I feel the outflow of people in my life does not justify the inflow. So many people I have or had been close to have left my side, yet few that come in can take on the same closeness. Well you might say quantity is not the matter of concern, but quality blah blah blah. Bullshit. Even the most loving couple can't survive with just each other. That's where friends and family come in, to provide an alternative company. Not that I mind being with my darling 24-7 but I'm very sure we'll run out of topics to talk about and love and boredom are not very good friends. Boredom like throwing love out and I agree. In conclusion I'm still a lonely spoilt brat that DEMANDS company, but I'll ENDURE! I will NOT distract my darling to satiate my hunger for company. I swear it upon my sweet tooth or you can have it! OK I mean them. What's wrong with having sweet teeth?