Frustration. Bad start to the week.

Fed up with the way the week started. Monday blues weren't exactly blue, it was more of a fiery Monday for me.

First thing in the morning I missed my shuttle to work. Rushed like mad to the bus-stop just to get snub in the face by a stupid attitude-problem driver. I was just standing beside the bus for goodness gracious' sake, and he just drove off! Crap! LX already told him to wait and I was like just opposite crossing over via the underpass. It was like less than 1 minute and I actually ran loR! Frustrating.

Then in the afternoon, I tried to quickly collect the samples to use on the SEM. For one thing, I was pretty irritated as the samples were difficult to keep them intact and remove them at the same time. SOMEONE had to add oil to the sparking temper I was having by suggesting ways and methods to try. I'm not saying the ideas are ridiculous, but the effect they yield do not justify the amount of time and effort required for it! Can't he just get that into his thick skull?! He's not a meanie but he needs to learn to listen and think of others. Here I am trying to finish whatever I've got quickly so the rest get carry on with their work. Then there he goes adding more things to the list as if the whole place can wait for him. Can't he see the predicament I'm in? I'm the bad guy here hogging the machine, causing their backlog, not him. Others will only see it as "Why you do so slow?", not "Aiyoh, your boss giving you a lot of things to do huh?". I admit I was a bit too nasty in my tone and expression when I talked back, but it's my flaw that I can't hold back my temper and emotions. Holding it down as much as it does not embarrass the person is as much as I can go. Tell me to be nice and diplomatic, hardly possible. Now what I'm worried about is that he interprets my frustration from the lack of results and wastage of effort as a resistance to the increased workload. That wouldn't reflect too nicely on my IA grading. Guess I'll just have to put in extra effort for the DRM and report, and pray that it salvages the damage I've done so far.

Luckily, I managed to rush finish my work and adios by 5:30pm. Not too bad an ending for a lousy day at work. At least I still got to go back on time. Could have been better if my dear brother didn't have to work OT. Nice dinner, ice-cream and shopping for myself! But since dinner was cancelled, lazy ol' me pop right back home and mugged on my anime.

On the way home, saw this little birdie under my block. Not really very pretty, less than the size of my fist, but I guess it being small was what made it cute. It couldn't really fly very well so it ended up flying straight into a wall. Initially I thought it was hurt so I stood by it for a while, then after I backed off a bit it finally got up and hopped around. I guess it was just tired for all the flying practices. Hope it's safe now. It isn't very safe on ground with all the cats waiting to pounce on it. I pray it survives.

Had a complaining session with my personal Uncle Agony aka darling, which relieved much of the tension and gave me a bit of self-reflection on how nasty I was. But I played a little Aunt Agony too, listening to complaints of non-smart study-ers. It's not a method I advocate and practise personally, due to the high dedication of time and attention and the low yield, so I sort of could relate quite well to the irritation. You can call it smart studying or being lazy, but I believe in optimising the output with the input. Every effort should be justified by some substantial result. Oh well, not really in the mood for philosophical discussion recently. In any case, the day didn't end that terribly, so let's just hope it stays this way.