You are your own world.

The last school day of the first week of Sem 2. Relieved that the weekend is here. Worried 'cause school will start full force next week(with all the tutorials and lab). Anxious 'cause the competition is up next week and our team isn't in its best physical condition. All heavenly beings please I truly pray that you bless them all. Keep them safe and their chins up high. I wish not to see our efforts go to waste due to uncontrollable circumstances. Thank you.
The past few days have been really emotional. But I figured that it was partially because I over-reacted. My ego doesn't allow me to put the full blame on myself. I refuse to accept the full blame. I was removed from part of the routine because I was too short. I can't help it. They can't help it too and I understand. What I can't get over is the fact that no one bothered to note the problem earlier in the stage and make changes. I have been training for the routine for so long and just a week before the competition you just decide to remove me? I know it's not right, it's what Ed's been telling me, it's doesn't seem to be worth it. Being nice and least trying to be nice and cheery. People walk all over you, take you for granted. Damn it. Now's not the time to be irrational! You got to think of the big picture! The competition is nearing, it's not the time to dampen the team's spirit! At least for the dedication Jansen has put in I'll make sure our routine goes through on the 13th. He'd love to see it, whether or not he's in it. Really glad, grateful in fact, to know people like him. You got to do the same thing, Leon. Don't let Jansen down in any way. You've got our support all the while, now you've got to give yourself that support.
Ed, you too. Get yourself together. You will be fine. I swear with my all that should anything go wrong for you, I'll personally answer to them. But, of course, you got to first make sure you remember what I said about being happy for the people who appreciates the effort. Forget those who don't even try bothering. I too have realised many people just do empty talk. There are people who truly appreciates you. Disappointments are unavoidable. I've given up pinning hopes on friends who promised to be there to support but hardly ever do. When all else fails, remember you still have yourself. Appreciate yourself.