This afternoon I had a very weird dream. I dreamt that a guy made a move. Held me tight in his arms as he sheltered me in the rain. Asked me what exactly do I mean by how I was treating him. I couldn't see his face somehow. He seemed like a person I was willing to accept but with reservations still. In the dream, several faces flashed through when he suddenly held me extra tightly. Maybe I could have lifted my head to see who he was but I didn't dare to. I wanted to rationally choose who to be with in real-life, and not to based it on a dream, a supposed fated result. Or maybe it was meant to be this way, that I wouldn't see his face. He sounded gentle, yet his arms held me real strong and tight like I could just collapse and fall without worrying about he not being able to catch me. The way he spoke was humourous yet it was overflowing with his preoccupation with me. I don't know. It's just a dream. Maybe this is how I would want to see myself in the future. How I would like it to be.
Anyway I'm just back from the movies at Marina Square. Kungfu Hustle. Very funny. Before that I went over to Church of Singapore to see Shu-Ying with her performance for her church's Children Ministry. A puppet play called The Puzzle, introducing Christianity to little kids. Then we went to Siglap for dinner, before heading to Marina for the movie. Good Friend kinda made a slight move today. He waited like near an hour to go home with me. He could have left early with the others he was with but he didn't. He said he was taking photos at Merlion Park. What do you think? Whatever it is, I got to make clear it's not possible between us. Yup, I'll do that should he make any concrete move. Yup, that's going to be my plan. Just pray that Ed doesn't get the wrong idea before that. I'll really go nuts.
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