Finally back home after a full week of activities. New year's eve today but I don't feel the joy of it all. Tsunami tragedy in the region caused so many deaths, leaving many homeless, without their kin or kith to receive the new year. Although I know we all should stay positive in the light of the tragedy, I can't help but feel for their loss.
Personally I don't feel too great either. Not that counting down at home with mummy and daddy is totally horrible or what, but realising everyone else has got somewhere else to go celebrate at and with makes the night extra lonesome. I wonder what he is doing tonight. He still doesn't know. Trapped by my own feeling, hindered by my own cowardice. And my supposed best buddies don't seem to understand me anymore. No one sees the sadness, the disappointment, the suppression in me. I feel neglected. No. Mummy and daddy remembers. I'm their little princess. They love me. Yes. They do. I don't care how others treat me. They don't care why should I. I shouldn't be crying over this. Daddy wouldn't like to see me like this. For them I'll be happy. I love you, Mummy and Daddy.
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